Let me start of by telling you, I'm a rational person. Nothing escapes my brain from thinking about alternatives, but when it's me living this life, it me going through this, it's hard to shake it off as "one of those things."
I have always been this way but in the last year it's getting stronger and more frequent. I'm trying to deal with it and "explore" but with no guide it's like I'm inside a duvet cover fumbling around trying to find my way to the other side:/
I'm a very empathertic person, and so in life have always been able to pick up what people feel. I am a holistic therapist and this bring me sometimes problems with the energy people bring into the room. But I'm learning to ground myself.
I have had a clients dad come to me, which after a moment of embarrassment I plucked up the courage to tell her. I don't see people, I get feelings, well a knowing my brain never doubts these feelings unlike a thought of my own, that I can change and form with my own brain. These are set and strong and unchangeable.
I felt what he looked like, I felt his personality, I felt him. But with this I don't get words or someone talking to me, so I have no message. She took comfort in what I had to offer but it left me frustrated.
After many of moments like these, an out of the blue obsession with owls and the need to surround myself with them, only to find out that in fact owls mean, clairvoyance and spiritual journey. Meaning I need to pay attention as there is something to be learned. Bizarre I know.
I have recently changed my therapy room from my house to a salon, it just felt right, and the fact that two days prior to the lady calling me, I had the street name, Collingwood road stuck in my head it would not leave me for days, she calls BAM it all makes sense,
I set the room up today, only to find in the window behind the blinds, are two MASSIVE crystals, rose quartz for my heart chakra meaning healing and such, and amethyst which is for your 3rd eye chakra to open you up spiritually. Strange to say the least, and I realize this is why the room "felt right".
Any way the point to this is to ask for help.
A few days ago, I started having a man, in his early 50's around me. He wasn't bothering me but he was making me aware of him. I felt him. I went to a bbq two days later, and there was a teenager called Sam there, I "knew" this man was with me for him. Yet since I can't hear them I just feel things. I had no message to give so I didn't talk to this lad.
A day later this man gets very aggressive, it's worse when I quite myself and focus. But I've had headaches and sick feelings from the time since after the bbq. And I know it's him, his energy has changed, I get the sense of him shouting at me, and pointing a finger. He feels almost father like, he is most certainly annoyed at me. But I can't help him. I'm not that far down the path to understand what he wants. I just know he is there.
Like I said I'm not crazy:/ last night I had to set my boundaries so he knew he had over stepped the line, but I don't want him to go, since clearly he requires something but I'm not the one who can help. I don't think.
I meditate and when I do, it's like a green light for him to get in my face and shout at me.
I don't know what else I can do to help him, or myself.
A not so psychic, psychic who doesn't even know what I am.