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Could I Be A Medium Or Am I Just Crazy?

 

First of all, if I'm posting this in the wrong place or something, I'm incredibly sorry. I'm brand new to this site and I'm not yet familiar with all the features. I've seen several questions people have submitted questioning their experiences, and honestly I don't know where else to go with these questions.

Basically, I'm the youngest of four children. When my mother was in the earliest stages of her pregnancy with me, before she even knew about me, my brother (the closest sibling in age to me who was still a baby at the time) passed away in a terrible accident. My parents and other siblings were obviously devastated and they had kind of decided that when I was born they wouldn't really tell me about my brother dying because they didn't want me to live in fear of being hurt. They did their best as I was growing up to never act like anything bad would ever happen to me, but I did kind of grow up with a fear of almost everything. But when I was a toddler just learning how to talk, my first word according to my parents was brother. I would point to pictures of my brother and talk about him like I knew him. It kind of puzzled my parents but they never encouraged or discouraged me talking about him, and they (now) tell me that they always thought it was interesting the kinds of things I would say about him since I'd never even met him or heard about him and because my parents were very careful about never bringing him up in my presence or leading me to discuss him.

By the time I was three, when I would say my prayers at night (my family was Catholic and I devoutly believed in God) I would pray for my family and then ask God to let me speak with my brother. I never saw him or anything, but it was almost like talking on a telephone. I would tell him I loved him just like if we'd been raised together and tell him Mommy and Daddy missed him and everything and then he would say something short and simple like "tell everyone I'm fine" or "I love you all". Nothing of true importance, just something small and comforting.

As I grew up, I continued speaking with him throughout the day every day and honestly felt as close or closer to him than even my living siblings. I would always give my family his messages and they never told me whether or not I was really hearing him or whether they were concerned about my mental health or anything, they mostly just observed without giving much help and I never knew it was something some people would consider strange.

When I reached the age of six or seven, though, it all stopped. I still spoke to him but he never really spoke back. I finally grew "out of it" and stopped even trying to talk to him because he'd kind of left me and I couldn't hear him anymore. I never thought about it again until I became a teenager when occasionally I would get a strange, cold feeling or see little shadows or just things that didn't belong. At that point, I told my therapist who put me on anti-psychotics in case it was hallucinations but they never went away from the medication, I just kind of out grew them the way I outgrew my brother.

I'm now in my twenties and have a child of my own who reminds me a lot of my brother in some way I can't really put my finger on. But then again, their genetically related so it would make sense that they would look a lot alike. I recently had a conversation with my parents and they told me about how they thought maybe I'd known my brother before I was born or something and that we just had a close connection and that they'd always believed me but they didn't want me to think I was different or weird or anything so they never let on. With that new encouragement, I desperately want to speak with my brother again the way I used to when I was a child, but I've tried and tried and I can't. Is it possible to be a medium as a child and then to out grow it? Or was I never a medium in the first place? Any advice, tips for enhancing medium abilities and the like are welcome. Thank you all so much for your time.

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The following comments are submitted by users of this site and are not official positions by psychic-experiences.com. Please read our guidelines and the previous posts before posting. The author, twinkletoes07, has the following expectation about your feedback: I will participate in the discussion and I need help with what I have experienced.

kay03 (1 stories) (4 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-11-08)
You're definitely not crazy, even if you weren't really talking to your brother as a child, it would be totally explainable as a strong childhood imagination and definitely not craziness. But I personally believe that all children are capable of seeing and hearing things that most adults can't, because their innocence and curiosity make them open to everything.

Are you wondering if your brother's soul has come back as your son? I know an energy healer who had worked with a spirit guide several times, and one night the guide told him that if he turned over in bed his girlfriend would become pregnant. He did, and not only did his girlfriend become pregnant, but the spirit guide was the soul that entered the newly conceived child.

Maybe it's possible that your two souls are very close and have followed each other through several lifetimes.
bbdeathspark (4 stories) (617 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-11-06)
Everyone has some mediumship and some psychic potency. Theres a narrow line between fake and real though, we'll have to get you trained and experienced in this to make sure it's real. But even if it isn't, you can become a medium anyways. For some its natural, for others its trained.
iScorpio (guest)
 
10 years ago (2011-11-06)
Hi!

You are not crazy! You were a medium and gifted as a child. I think you grew out of it but don't say you're crazy to yourself.

If you have any questions please e-mail me at jlp102797 [at] gmail.com

😊
Eagleclaw (386 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-11-05)
twinkletoes07,
I too can relate to your story. Before I was born, I had a brother that passed away at 2 years old from the flu. So, as I was growing up I would open my closet and every few days I would see this little boy sitting on the floor of the closet. He would always ask me questions about what was going on with the family, And, I would tell him. One day he said that I should ask mom "who is Andrew?". So, I go to mom and I ask "who is Andrew?". She said to me "why do you ask?" I say " The little boy sitting in my closet wanted me to ask you". Mom suddenly burst out crying and asks me to go play with my brothers and sisters. I didn't have a clue what was going on. The next day my oldest brother tells me that I had a brother named Andrew and what happened to him. After that Andrew appeared to me in the closet a couple of times but stopped talking to me. I believe that he just wanted mom to know that he was still there and I was the messenger. And, I was happy to have the opportunity to get to know him in that special way. I haven't seen him in many years. I think he is with both of my parents and the others who have passed on in the family.
vanillabean (9 stories) (168 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-11-05)
Hey twinkletoes, it's totally possible to speak to/see spirits when young and stop doing it as we grow older. I think this is much more common than people like to think. It's also completely possible that you knew your brother before you came to earth. You might have even been there at the "gates of heaven" (so to speak) to greet him when he passed. He could have helped to prepare you to come to Earth. You can definitely become a medium again if you find the right people to guide you. I am lucky that where I live I have found mediums and meditation circles. Do some googling on "spiritualist churches" and that sort of thing... In your area. That's how I got connected with MANY mediums/psychics who are the real deal.

One way that I can relate to you is that I also have a brother who died, but I was 5 and he was 2. Like you, the youngest child in our family was born very soon after my brother's passing. I've had experiences with my brother's spirit and always knew he would continue to exist and that I'd see him again. Last time I had contact with him (that I am very aware of) was about 4 years ago.

So all of these questions you're asking, you can relax, because you're not crazy at all. There are countless possibilities for the ways in which you've interacted with your brother, not only on earth, but in the Universe and possibly over many lifetimes.

Sometimes my youngest brother asks questions about our brother who passed away, whom he never got the chance to meet. I often wonder if he wants to talk more abotu it but is too afraid to ask because he thinks we won't want to talk about it. It's funny to read this because it's been on my mind a lot lately. Thx for posting and take care! Also you can feel free to email me GreenPsychic [at] gmail.com

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