This might sound pathetic, but it always has pretty much an unhappy ending.
I can be perfectly happy and everything's going great. Then for NO good or tangible reason I become nervous and get a little more than depressed. Sometimes I think it's because I had my thyroid removed several years ago, so I kind of dismiss it. I have to take meds for the rest of my life (I'm sure I'm not the only person out there on synthroid).
Just today, my boyfriend kept asking me why I looked so sad, I didn't feel sad, guess my face said differently. He goes to work as usual and I'm cooking dinner, nothing out of the ordinary. He calls on my cell and tells me his dad has been sent to a hospital out of town with a possible heart attack.
This is by far the first incident that I've had where I can't explain this feeling of foreboding. I can't ever put my finger on what's going on, but it usually doesn't end well.
Anybody else out there like me? As I'm getting older I find this more than a little distressing.
I also notice that I sometimes have very strong aversions to people that I meet and I don't understand that as I'm a very social person and love meeting new people. But, once again, it seems bad things come of these people that I just want to get away from as quickly as possible. No, I'm not paranoid or mentally ill, nor do I come from a family with mental illness. Please tell me there are other people like myself who just don't quite understand these feelings.
I do believe there are things that we can't always explain. And I consider myself to be open-minded.