My story is kind of long and hopefully I will be able to describe fully what I am trying to figure out about myself. My names Jeremy and I'm 16. Within the past couple months I went through a really difficult time in my life. I was depressed and I almost ended up committing suicide. Through that time I was extremely spiritual and that was the only thing I held on to that kept me alive. After I got better over time, holding onto that spirituality I've always felt like I was missing something about myself. I later discovers that I was Psychic Empath, but I was unaware of what it was doing to me. Being depressed like that made my family depressed and I was always reacting on their emotions. I felt like I found this amazing trait about myself that I didn't believe was possible for me. When I look into someone's eyes it's almost like I can hear their thoughts, emotions and there personality. I'm afraid to act on these "thoughts" that come into my head and it's almost like I'm just wasting my abilities.
I've also had experiences with astral traveling. Even though I never been able to walk around I always feel super light and moving upwards. I'm too scared to do this so I just retreat back into my own body. Ever since I was little I've been a natural lucid dreamer. My empathic abilities to me are definitely a gift but I feel like there is so much more that I'm capable of and I truly feel like I'm suppose to do something. I'm really spiritual and I'm afraid of losing these gifts of mine. Most people would say to someone like me; Why would someone want to feel another person's emotions like there your own?. It's because it makes me different from the whole world, and I'm not just another person who has nothing unique about themselves. I remember that my grandmother was depressed and it was destroying me inside. I said to myself that I'm going to try to take all of her depression as my own and give her all my positive emotions. Two weeks later she was different and happy.
I feel like I'm able to take and send emotions to people and I can feel it because it takes up a lot of my energy when I'm doing it willingly. I'm a super super sensitive person and I've always been like that since I was little. I'm so in-tune to every little detail about everyone personalities, actions etc. I can sense positive and negative energy. I can even sense when a spirit is in the room with me. I'm not sure if anyone would know this but, what other psychic abilities do I have because I'm stuck at this point where I know I can go further, but I just don't know how to and I feel like I have a lot of undiscovered abilities I just don't know how to access them? And by the way I don't believe in using psychic abilities for self gain or to show off unless it's used to help another person or do the right thing.
It is hard to know when what you are feeling is true. Something I found that helped was to, how do I put this nicely... Forget or stop caring about what you think others think of what you can do. Once I started just accepting what I did and not caring about what I felt others might think, I started experiencing much more and a funny thing happened. The people that thought me weird seemed to disappear or not bring up what I could do anymore. And a new group of accepting people appeared in my life. People I wasn't afraid to be who I truly am around.
I also noticed that the more I trusted myself the more feedback I started receiving from others, giving me the positive feedback I craved to know that I was on the correct path and that I was not wrong nearly as often as I first had thought. Maybe 1 in every 20. Then it went to 1 in every 50. The more I used my abilities the more I was correct and the more people I was able to help. As well as the increased knowledge of things that I could do started to grow.
I know this will be the same for you. You are very gifted. I see something great in you.
Keep doing what you do. Everything will fall into place real soon. :)