I was dreaming I was in my spirit house. I was standing looking down into a dark cellar I had a hold of the trap door. I had a choice to make down into the dark cellar or up a flight of stairs. I had no desire to go down into the unknown dark recesses of my soul so I slammed the door shut. I turned and looked up the flight of stairs and stepped towards them.
I put one foot on the stairs and was immediately pushed down, I was forced to crawl and not walk up. I have always been a strong person in mind and body and continued up, each step was arduous but I made it. When I finally got to the top of the stairs, I was able to stand. I turned to the open door and looked into the room. It was a children's nursery filled with babies and toddlers and carers watching over the children. I felt no need to speak, and directly opposite the doorway was a cot. There were four children in this cot and I walked over towards it.
There was twin boys, a little girl and another little boy. I didn't hesitate and chose the little boy, I held him close to me and turned to walk out. The attendant at the door marked the baby off his list and I said "look after the others, I will be back for them".
I found out two weeks later that I was pregnant I can only assume that the dream came to me the night I conceived my son. Several years later, when my son was about three, I was telling the story to some friends of mine, my little boy was there listening with great interest. Later that night when I was putting him to bed, he said to me, "mummy I remember you coming to get me". I asked him what he meant and he said again "I remember you coming to get me", I couldn't work out if it was his earliest memory or if it was him remembering me coming to get him in the dream. I myself feel that it was the dream he was referring to. He is my youngest child and has brought immeasurable joy into my life, he has always been a loving and cheerful child.
As for the other children in the cot, I don't know, I am past being able to have children now I can only assume that they weren't meant for me or that I will be united with them in my next lifetime.