I guess to make sense of this I should give a little back story. I have always been clarisentient and empathic for as far back as I can remember. My clarisentience is to the point where I really don't need to look anything up unless it's to fill in gaps in my knowledge. And my empathy is strong enough that when I don't have it locked up tight I can't control how much of other people's emotions I adopt as my own.
Now that my explanation is out of the way let me explain my issue. Always like clockwork at around 11:00 or 12:00 midnight every night since I turned 18, I keep feeling like I'm being watched. I don't think it means to harm me now but I get the feeling that it would if I did something. I just can't find out what that something is. And the only reason I haven't gotten rid of it is that it feels familial to me.
The problem is I don't think it likes me and it's extremely difficult to sleep with something watching you that you can feel quite clearly does not like you. It's starting to get to the point where I won't sleep without a light on and I'm 19. I can't see ghosts' I can only feel that they are there and what their emotions are and occasionally sense bits and pieces of what they want to say. Sometimes I get the feeling that it's forcing me to go to sleep and when I wake up, and I am even more tired than when I went to sleep.
And like I said it feels familiar to me. I get the feeling that it was or is family to me. And I don't know if I'm wrong or not. I also know that I've felt its presence before but it's never been constant. It only started being constant when I turned 18. I also get the feeling it wants my body and that I'm adapting pieces of its personality.
If it helps, I have an older half sibling that my mom aborted because it would have been a rape baby. Anyway anyone that can help please do I'm desperate here. I can't make it leave and I've tried to please help me.