What am I missing from this equation?
I'm a Black Foot Indian, had two prediction dreams, (one I think was one), and I get tingles. My mother had told me all about us having abilities. Seeing the dead, talking to the dead, prediction dreams, the whole shaz. Nobody in my family knows how to use the gift. It just comes naturally, when we're relaxed she said.
I also had this one dream. I was someone older, different hair color, and pudgier. I'm pretty darn sure I was my algebra teacher. I was in pain. I felt like I had arthritis, she's only like 30-40 years old.
I had a dream of a murder the night before it happened.
I had a dream of a scene in a book I had recently read a year or so before it happened.
I just can't figure this out. I need help. My mom just won't help me. I tried asking my grandma, but she isn't on the side that has it. My grandma didn't even know before I asked her about it.
When I ask my mom about the "gift" she will get angry and defensive, and I feel like she's hiding something. Something big.
I remember the night she told me, (my younger sister was sitting there too), that it started when she was seventeen.
She said she didn't to tell me because, her dreams scared her more than ever. She never wants to sleep because of them.
But, is it wrong that I want them?
I want the dreams, even if they're bad, I want to be able to control it. I want to be like that. It seems like it could be a good thing. I have this huge sense that I want to help people.
My mom also told her fiance that I was an old soul. He had asked why I loved such older music. Very old to about 2008.
I just have this feeling that I'm missing something important.