Many years ago I began contacting my spirit guide through meditation. The procedure I used, which I can no longer remember where I read about it, was to build a safe room and furnish/decorate it with things that make me feel comfortable.
My first couple attempts were short but worked well. The first time I did this, I walked up stairs and opened the door to experience my room. An interesting thing happened. I, being an avid book reader, had placed many shelves of books in this room. I don't know why I said 'every book I have read or will read' but that's what I specified. At random, I pulled a book from a shelf and read the title. It was 'Moby Dick', a book I not only have never read, but have never wanted to! I have some guesses as to what message that may be, any thoughts by anyone would be appreciated.
My second time in my safe room during meditation, I answered the door and met my guide, I assume. She looked like me, a bit older and prettier, though. I did not think to ask about the book though at the time.
My main issue now is on a subsequent visit with my guide, she told me to do something. I didn't do it. I was told to come clean about a past issue to a particular person. I feared the consequences too much at the time. Since then I haven't sought out my guide because I was afraid that I disappointed her or something. I have been afraid to face her judgement, I think. I now realize that it is, of course, my own judgement that is at question. I have the feeling that my spirit guide above all will understand. So I am now ready to re-connect. I would appreciate any and all comments about this matter. I am hoping for some encouragement, frankly. Thank you so much.