My stepmother has an evil attached to her that is very strong. I don't have a big problem with my stepmother herself, other than that she plays with things she shouldn't (tarot cards, etc.) and is a drunk alcoholic. When she drinks, the evil spirit uses her energy more. This spirit has the ability to make people's natural intuition go all wonky. It can also mimic other people's energy.
Before my father met her, he had a dream about her and therefore determined that she was his "true love" (and I'm not saying she's not, but there may be more at play than that). After he married her, his relationship with his children changed drastically. He broke promises he had made to his children (myself included). The best way it can be explained is he once told someone that he put his needs first, his wife's needs second, and his children really didn't demand his help as we are all adults. Although I knew that he had viewed us as unwanted responsibilities he was now glad to get rid of, I didn't realize how strongly he felt that way. Please also understand that my father is one of those people that as long as his needs are met (in this case work, financial, and sexual needs), he will just follow along with the crowd as he doesn't want to look bad in front of the people whose opinions matter to him. Sometimes, I feel like his true self is stuck somewhere underneath a thick façade of who he pretends to be. And sometimes, my father is jealous of his children. There have been times when I have felt he doesn't want us to succeed because he doesn't want us to be better than him.
Shortly after they married, the evil spirit attached to my stepmother came to play with my husband and I. It took us a little while before we realized what was going on. However, one night, I knew without a doubt that my stepmother had sent a spirit for us to cause problems in our marriage. (I may not be able to see the spirits, but I instantaneously know who sent it. I can't explain this as I've only had it happen a few times.)
After that, a (different, possibly messenger) spirit that didn't feel inherently good or bad watched us while we slept. After a while it bothered me so much, I called my father because he has the most experience with these things. It quit after that, but my father never told me what was going on. He never does.
Around this time, I had a dream that a spirit was picking on my father. I, being insignificant in contrast to my father, told the spirit that he shouldn't pick on my father; that it wasn't okay. At first, the spirit looked at me oddly as if I said something funny then walked right over to me. He put his arms on my arms and fed off my anger. That's when I realized that I needed to send love because evil only feeds off of anger and hatred. I apologized to the spirit, and then the dream ended. (As a sidenote, for whatever reason, in my dreams, spirits always seem to do a double-take with me. Any ideas why?)
More recently, I was considering asking my father for help with rent. I felt my father's angry energy and mixed with something else (possibly the evil with my stepmother) basically mad with me for wanting to take "his" money. This really freaked me out because I'd warned my father on multiple occasions about things that were taking place not for me but for him. I am concerned that one day, he will end up alone with no money because he will have alienated those he loved from himself. It would be a long road ahead of him at that point to rebuild his relationship. I hope it doesn't happen, though, but he's headed in that direction. I cried about this for a couple of days, but decided that there was nothing I could do so I decided to move on with my life and forget him.
Now, I'm having trouble severing the bond between myself and my father. There was a time when I really could have used his help because although psychic abilities run on both sides of the family, there are certain things he has more experience with. One example is that we both get visited by the same positive energy/spirit although my father can see them where I can't. We also have both had our eyes turn red when we felt angry. For me, it was because I felt threatened and angry because I wanted to quit my job. Although I felt something pushing me, I still felt in control of my body at the time. So while it could have been demon possession, it seems different than other stories I have found about it. As soon as my husband looked at me with love, I calmed down because I became concerned about him rather than hating myself.
I just started a job as a manager. The first day went great, almost perfect. The second day was about as bad as it gets. I felt my heart chakra being drained that day. I'm not sure what caused this. Sometimes, I get drained when I try to calm down my husband as he has anger issues. But on this day, I felt his love protect me. We may not have a perfect relationship, but we love each other unconditionally- something that's not easy to come by.
I would like help with severing the bond with my father, and also help on how to strengthen and protect my heart chakra. I would like to be taught how to control this so that it can help me in the future. I hate feeling drained all the time because it makes it harder to deal with everything else. Plus, I would like to keep my job, which I love.
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