I'm not going to bore everyone with the "it all started when I was little" story lol. I have not had an easy going last couple years and its been my own personal hell. But. I am in a different spot in my life now. I started having problems sleeping and felt like I was "seeing" things. I didn't see them with my physical eyes but could see them in what I have now found out to be my minds eye. I went to a medium and had a reading. She enlightened me on a lot, but I also found myself leaving with a lot more questions than I went in with. She (among others) told me that I have a gift. A healing gift for sure and very possibly a medium gift. I have been trying to come to terms with this. I was brought up in a Baptist home. At first I felt like this was a slight against God for some reason. But the more I looked into this I realized that this gift was not malicious. There was no harm in what I might have. Its been difficult finding many people to talk to this about cause there is such a stigma that goes along with it. People automatically think you're crazy and want you locked up. So my support circle is very very small. Books have been an even bigger obstacle. I have been told about my spirit guide, but have not made contact with them, yet. I have set rules for them. So i'm not sure if my rules are too out of the way for them or not. I tried to make them simple. Rule 1) I don't want to physically see anything right now (not until I'm comfortable). Rule 2) If my spirit guide is trying to contact me that I ask for the aroma of vanilla or like sugar cookies. Since this isn't a smell that I buy in candles and I don't bake (lol) I assumed it should be a easy smell for the spirit guide to replicate for me. Mediation has also become a weekly habit of mine. But I still have self doubt. I'm not sure where to take the next steps. There are days that I'm not "in tune". And at night things seem to be more active. Then I was told something about the Akashic Record (not sure on the spelling) and that I was taped into that. I'm not sure.
Sooo, email, comment, anything would greatly be appreciated.
Thanks a bunch
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