Not knowing something is probably the worst feeling I could have. I have, for a long time wanted to visit a psychic that my mom went to years ago and said she is the best she's met. I have just had trouble finding her and getting to her.
Usually I can just write whatever is on my mind in my journal and it seems to sort it self out. I always figured that maybe once I saw the words on the page I just subconsciously could make better decisions. But when it comes to this, I'm confused and not sure what to do.
Over the course of my life I have not made very many connections with people outside my family.
I have one person to whom I hold dear to me and that is my best friend. She seems to be the only person I have not had a falling out with and feel closest to. On the relationship front, the whole dating scene, I have never really been into that whole thing. I know right now you're probably thinking, "Oh this is just some girl in need of relationship advice." Well you might be right but there is another side to this whole thing.
Over the past three or so years I have tried this whole dating thing. For a while, with each, it's been good and everything seems perfect. Then, for every single relationship (one per year) everything changes overnight. I'm not just exaggerating either. Literally, in one night something changes and suddenly they don't talk to me, I don't see them, I don't hear from them. Nothing. Oddly enough, it's always at the two month mark. Sure, not a long time or anything but it seems so extremely coincidental that the same thing happened for each one, at the same time of year, for the same amount of time.
Maybe I'm completely over analyzing this but I can't help but think that something happened and I don't know what. Maybe it's something, maybe nothing. Just want your input.