I'll start out brief with this, I suppose with some background information. I am a teenage female whom's abilities are seemingly fading away over time. When I was a small child I use to be empathic and was able to physically see spirits at times, around 4th grade to be specific, and occasionally I'd be able to communicate with them. I never really heard their voices outloud, it was more like in my head but I always had doubt in it. I was able to astral project in fact a few times in the past two years but it freaks me out so every time I got the feeling it was going to happen I'd stop it. I ended up doubting myself over the year and I faltered in faith at times, and even know I'm like this. I've turned my back on my abilities for some time due to personal reasons with people and just things I'd rather not discuss.
Currently I'm left with being able to faintly sense when a spirit is around and occasionally see energy. Seeing energy has always been with me since I can remember. On everything I see there is sort of black and white moving things that sometimes move in the shapes of waves. It's sort of hard to describe so just think of the grain on an iPhone's camera. If I don't pay attention to it I don't notice it but if I do and stare at people I can see a thin white line around them that shows color. It's not really vivid but it'll be a flash of a color that moves a bit and I assume this is what an aura is but I disregard it most of the time. I can only see it when I'm zoning out staring at someone.
With feeling a spit it's presence it has gotten a lot harder for me unless it's threatening. For example when I'm all alone an it's dark I get that feeling someone is staring at me and when I leave my bedroom to go to the kitchen I feel like someone is following after me, stepping on the backs of my feet. It freaks me out and I usually run to the kitchen to get my drink and run back to my room.
With sleeping it seems when I'm in the state of falling asleep but in still awake I can hear things. I've once felt myself drifting and something growled really loud in my ear and woke me up. Another time which was more frightening was when I was half asleep I felt someone was with me, not necessarily dark just I felt a presence. Even though my eyelids were closed I still felt a shadow go over them like you know when someone waved a hand in front of your face when your eyes are closed and you see the lighting change behind your eyelids. Well anyways I felt like someone was reaching out to touch my face or my hair and my body jolted up and I felt like I had no control of my body. I didn't even know I was screaming until I was out in the hallway. I knew I was running because I felt myself move but it too me a moment to realize what went on.
Lastly with my empathic abilities it seems they have dulled. I use to take pride in being so empathic and able to know when my friends were upset because I felt it but now I don't get that anymore. Only thing I get with empathy anymore is when someone is talking to me about their emotions and I feel it go through me as if it is my own. I get it through both reading their messages, like a text, or hearing it.
Could anyone explain these off encounters with the odd growling and someone trying to touch my head/face in my sleep? Or why my abilities are diminishing... I have a few of my own theories but I'd love to hear from others and whatever anyone wants to comment on my story.