My name is Jillian. I am nineteen years old and have had experiences since I was at least five or six years old. I see clear people, shadows, I know things and can visualize places connected to people as if i've been there and have throughly walked around. I am a very good "guesser" and know names of people's relatives, and for example, what a friend may be wearing at any given moment with intent focus. All of these things began happening with the earliest experience I can remember which was when I saw a clear mean walk from one side of my basement to the other and exit. I believe he was just passing through. The best way I can describe him is that he looked just like Abraham Lincoln on the penny. I only could see from the torso or chest up. I was terrified but my mom did not believe me. Since then little by little my experiences have increased. I once guessed the exact number of jelly beans my teacher put in a jar at school for a prize in third grade. As I said I am a very good "guesser". Slowly these things developed without me ever intending them too. I just recently found out the proper name for an experience I had when I was about sixteen or seventeen, you can view it in my last story. I accidentally astral projected and only just learned that this is what I experience that night so many years ago. Lately I have been seeing more shadows and figures and I am starting to feel anxious for my safety. I can also see auras with concentration and although I have tried protective meditation I feel as though I truly need someone to guide me. About four years ago I began babysitting three girls for the leuitenent of my towns police force. I always felt strange in the house especially in the evening. I would hear things and see things. My mom eventually started to believe me because of all the things I insisted would happen. One night the middle child who always has a hard time sleeping alone in her room was hysterical. She claimed she couldn't sleep and she was scared the ghosts would harm her. I stayed with her until she fell asleep. I then dozed off in the hallway to make sure she didn't get up and wake her sisters. I awoke to the sound of someone going through boxes although no one was there. Even the cat was acting strange. I was shocked to find out the next day the horrible events that took place in their house. After telling the Lieutenant (mother) what happened she asked if she told me about the houses history. Shocked that there even WAS a history I said no. Come to find out, she was on duty and got a call to this residence where a fire burned down the home, trapping and killing the elderly woman (owner) inside. The woman was unable to escape down the stairs because she was a hoarder and the stairwell as well as the entire house was littered with dangerous amounts of clutter. The previous owner passed away in the bedroom that now belongs to the middle child who has trouble sleeping alone. I was APPALLED to hear this story because suddenly the things I would hear made sense. The house was completely rebuilt and the Lieutenant fell in love with it and bought the home with her husband and have since had a family there. I do not believe the spirits in the house are evil but for some reason when I am there lately more and more events have happened. I feel as though I may perhaps be a magnet attracting negative energies to the house when I am there. I try to control my thoughts but it is extremely terrifying to see and hear things you have no control over. Last week I saw a black figure jump/ run in the room of the middle child. I was the only one in the bedroom as I was waiting for the middle child to return from the bathroom. I was on the telephone at the time I saw this small figure and began to have anxiety after. The things I am seeing and hearing are beginning to become more prevalent and I truly am fearful of my own self-protection. I have tried many things to control my abilities such as praying, meditation, and distraction. While praying helps me to block these things out somewhat, eventually they always return just as strong if not stronger. I am sharing my story because I am desperate for help. I am seeking a medium who would be willing to be my mentor and guide me. I have tried mediation even for seeking out my spiritual guide and past life regression however when I do these things I get extreme anxiety to the point of physical burning pain and am forced to stop. I don't know why these things are happening to me and am in need of some badly needed guidance! Please if you are a medium and are willing to help me, any help would be extremely appreciated! Thank you for your time and for reading my story!