You can refer to me on here as Celestele for my screen name. I am 16 years old, and 17 in a week. In all simplicity- I am seeking some help.
My friend whom is the same age as me opened me up to this spiritual path. It took a while for him to explain and slowly make me understand because all of it is pretty crazy. We're both empaths. He is a stronger one though, considering he is more in tune with the whole spiritual thing. Since then, he has been trying to help me and get me to get to his level of frequency. He can see auras, sees things like a portal and repetitive signs like this humming bird, feels other peoples emotions so strongly its almost like it eats away at him, and etc. He constantly meditates.
Here is what we have put together about us. We both: have always felt alone since we were even little, as though we are outcasts watching the world around us from the outside, in- almost like observers, that is until we met each other. We are adaptable, almost like nomads, able to mold ourselves to fit any group of people but still knowing we don't quite belong. We can sense things before they happen sometimes, thinking it then seconds later it occurs and then after realizing it was almost like it was predicted. We can sense when someone is in distress or emotionally unstable. We are both in tune with nature. It's almost like we don't belong here.
Anyways, he has had me trying to mediate. But, it doesn't seem to work for me. The first time it was like I woke up from a daze. After that he wanted me to try it on my own. So I did, at night. Then I did again another night. Both nights it scared me, and I couldn't focus. Because I would keep hearing a noise occur, even though I had my earphones on listening to the meditative sounds he sent me. I'm scared of the dark. But I still lay in it at night. So, what I do is close my eyes, focus on the meditative sounds in my earphones, but then I'll hear a noise despite the loud volume. I'll open my eyes in panic and swear I saw a shadow move, that or get bigger. It'll happen again and again and I get scared. Because it seems to always get closer. So, I stopped.
He had me come over yesterday and I mediated in his backyard so I was outside. He says it enhances your senses or something like that. I'm not supposed to think but I did. I kept thinking about one thing over and over again. It was this moment when I was little. My sister, neighbor, and I would swear we were witches and had powers and such. I said I had the power of earth. Anyways, in this moment I was alone and outside and young around the age of 10. I was by myself and I raised both my hands up and held my head high and called to mother nature, or sought to call something. When I did this, a big gust of wind came and started blowing all around me. I was surprised, being little and all, and brought down my hands. It stopped. It was extremely hot that day. There wasn't much more than a breeze.
So, I kept playing that scene in my head. The wind was getting stronger, I could've sworn as I tried meditating. It was blowing my hair forward past my face and all around me.
After we were done me and my friend started talking. He was disappointing because he said he failed, since it wasn't successful. But then I told him about the scene I kept playing in my head form my childhood. Then he said something that surprised me. He said, he noticed the wind blowing my hair and everything too. Most importantly, he said he was positive that there was no wind until I got there/started mediating. Then we made another connection. I have occasional reoccurring dreams. Well, not a reoccurring but a reoccurring symbol. It's flying. I don't have wings but in the dreams I always have the ability to fly, sometimes I can, and sometimes its really difficult and I can't seem to get off the ground like somethings pulling me down. Yesterday, we realized all the connections. My childhood experience, to yesterdays. And the dreams.
That pointed us to one thing. That what I'm experiencing, and my spiritual path is completely different than his. We thought we were finally getting somewhere, and now were more confused and lost than ever, because I don't believe whatever I am or have or whatever this is- is surely not the same as his experiences. He also said something else. That he can't really be around our friends anymore because their frequencies don't match his cause his is high adn theirs is low. Then I asked about my frequency- he said he doesn't know. That mine is weird. I asked if there is anyone else like that, where he didn't know their frequency, and he sat for a long time thinking. He said no.
Other things that may be important:
-I'm extremely, naturally good with animals ever since I was little.
-I have always felt in tune with nature since I was little, my parents never understood because they never taught me to be or were.
-When I was small, I could have sworn I had the ability of earth or something.
I'm so confused. Is this all in my head?
Please. I need to understand. I need help. We both do.
If anyone has any information of anything, or think they can guide us please contact me.
If tried meditation, it never worked, I usually go on my garage roof, I know it's dangerous, but oddly it calms me down.
Maybe you should try to go to high places to relax!
Ps. You are cool!