This is probably going to be a little long. My family does not talk a lot about the paranormal things that have always gone on. Every once in a while, one of us will bring it up. The women in my family, my late great grandmother, my Nana, my mother, my two sisters, and myself have always known things that we weren't supposed to know. We've always seen things, and are very sensitive. No one ever gave me a reason why, or a how. But I knew the women in my family had abilities at least up to my great-great-grandmother. I'm not sure about before then, and no one ever told me.
But visions aside, every generation has seen things; the same things: When my mom was younger, she was plagued by hauntings. Her childhood room became infested with moths and the family saw things including shadow figures, black cats (they had no cats due to allergies), a little girl that would follow the members of my family around, even to church! The kids began claiming to see what they described as Medusa in the mirrors of the home. When my mom became very ill, the gorgon-thing and the child began tormenting her and other members of the family-both in the day, and during sleep. They were plagued by nightmares of attacks from both the hag and the little girl.
Because of these experiences as well as the abilities, my Nana didn't leave her house for sixteen years. We have moved over twenty times, and it doesn't matter where we move, we are plagued by happenings. And every once in a while, one of us has a nightmare or two about the hag or little girl--even my younger sisters who know nothing about what happened to my mom as a child. I will never forget being a really young child and recounting how a family friend died-in exact detail-when she'd died before I was born. My Nana grabbed me by the shoulders, shook me violently and and said I was to block the visions until they stopped, until I stopped seeing. In middle school, I spoke to a friend about a less than usual dream I'd had of her. She, another student, and our English teacher at the time joined together; telling me my family was cursed, and possessed, read me scriptures and my teacher even brought me bibles, begging my family to go to church. (I guess to be expected, living in the South). In the 8th grade I broke the news to my mother that her best friend had died-we hadn't heard from her in years, but her husband called 3 days later to inform us of her passing.
I can deal with the visions and the dreams, even if the rest of my family can't. But the constant psychic attacks never end. And for some reason, the abilities of my family are limited to the women. Why only target the women in my family? My mom has a very strong belief that if she really talks about what goes on, that she will open us up to it, like opening a door she won't be able to shut again.
She said to me last night: "I strongly believe if I let myself fear it, it will kill me." If it's a curse, how can we break it? As it's definitely not something I want my future children to inherit. And if it's not a curse, how do we stop the generations of hauntings, and gain control over our abilities-enough so that we don't lose our minds? Does any of this sound familiar to anyone? I really appreciate sincere answers, as I am being 100% honest and truly need help. Please.