For the past two years of my life I have had an increasing difficulty with not taking energy from other people, and there is no reason for me to do so because I am young, healthy, and have a lot going for me in life, and I am not depressed. But I think I have picked up an astral parasite somehow whether it be an entity, or something out of this realm.
Sometime I think that this bug has drains me which results in me subconsciously draining others around me. Or the big goes to other sources that are around me then comes back. I cannot see its full form but I have had strange occurrences where I try to wave off the attachment and hear a popping noise in the wall next to me or the room. Kind of like when you scratch your nose or something when someone talks to you in an irking tone.
The only explanation I have for this is that I either picked up something in the operating room when I had surgery on my ankle to years ago or something happened about a year and a half ago that I am about to divulge.
A year and a half ago I was still in college and there was a beautiful park with a lot of nature and a river beside it that was sort of like a sanctuary for me. Around this time I was learning a lot about extraterrestrials, spirits, the occult in politics, ancient history not taught in school etc.
One night I went to this park to pray to a higher being or beings. I was looking for angles. "The good guys". And praying to the universe to help us humans in these troubled times and to bring about good and help defeat the darkness on this planet.
I visualized myself outflowing with infinite white love energy and having this energy engulf earth and all darkness being vanquished. I do not remember for how long I did this but at one point I opened my eyes and a bright orb-like materialization of what seemed to by starlight appeared over the river and moved in a quick small circle before my eyes right before vanishing. It was the most supernatural thing I have ever experienced and I am not making this up.
So, I don't know what has happened since these two events or if the hole on my energy field that I am perceiving is being cause by something unrelated to these two events. When I feel the right side of my face my energy feels one and while but my left ear feels like something is there that is not me and I cannot live with this any longer. I have read materials and how to get rid of entity's, I've even gone so far as to believe that it is an energetic chord with people I know and have tried to cut it almost 6 to seven times a day.
If someone could please give me their opinion I would really appreciate it.