Starting from when I was a tiny girl, I knew I was different. The first time I had an episode where I realized I was special was when me and my family were heading home. We were in the car and all of a sudden an image came in to my head of my favorite pets escaping from their cage and running all around the house. I started screaming and cryiny, begging my parents to go home. Sure enough, they were out and about running around the room. It just got worse from that point on.
At school, I could predict people's futures and see most of ther personal lives. I was called a witch, and lost many friends and respect because people were afraid of what I could do. I knew I was different. Sadly, most of what I said became true.
Some say it's a gift, others a curse. I would say a curse.
By then, I didn't want the ability anymore. I prayed and prayed it would go away, and for awhile now it has. Then one fatal day I was walking, continuing my normal lfe as I would, and I had a vision. I don't get them in the night, but when I'm up and active, or trying to relax. I saw a death of someone I loved, and a guy I loved a long time ago with someone new. I cried like I had never cried before that night.
I don't believe in set futures, everyone's future can change. But what a curse this is. I can't control the visions, as hard as I try they tend to control me. I can only describe it as losing touch of reality, entering a state of dreaming, and watching a movie play in front of my eyes. As I stated before its a curse, something's are better left not knowing. I want to learn to control it or radicade it for good. It wasn't a choice to have this abilty, and I wish it was. Being around others just makes it that much worse. Seeing what the future holds for them, yet never knowing them or being able to tell them... What should I do? I'm in a state of denial. I've coming looking for help, I'm so confused and lost on what is going on. What ability do I have? Can I shut it off? How can I control the visions?
Thank you guys!