To start. Not to sound vain. I've been told I have too much energy or power inside. I can cast wiccan spells with just a thought. I can flood an area with energy I can control at will. I've banished a powerful demon that had been hunting me for 11 years and trying to possess me, in my dreams with the help of an old teacher. Electronics completely flip out when I'm near them. My first experience with astral projection- I was able to see the house as if it was transparent. Saw through the floors, my housemate asleep, my adopted grandma in her room, the kitchen, living room, but nothing had a solid shape. It was all just outlines. To prove to myself it was real, while I was 'asleep' I wanted to find my shirt that said 'I don't do love' that I hadn't seen in months. I found it and when I woke up my shirt drawer was open and it was exactly where I thought it would be. After meeting a person for the first time I'm able to sense exactly how they hurt down to the last detail no matter how guarded they are I've actually freaked people out over this one because I'm able to sit someone I hardly know down and tell them all about them. How their broken and I can tell them exactly what they need to heal. I've been able to see threw other peoples eyes. I've been able to put my hand on you and take all your pain away and give it to myself.
Worst of all though. I know when people are about to die. I sense breakups no matter how happy the couple because its the death of the heart. I've had my death saved before this way. I've told someone something was really wrong and a week later someone they were close to committed suicide. I've known when people are in the ER ect. It got to the point (This is morbid) I told my little brother something was wrong and someone was going to die. He didn't believe me and if someone died he'd buy me dinner. Not even 2 weeks later his friend killed himself. I didn't make him buy me dinner of course. I'll be laying in bed and get a sharp shooting pain in my stomach and start sobbing and I just know. I don't exactly know who. Just something is wrong and someone needs help- then they die.
I can only predict something is wrong in 3 people life. Mine, a close friend and my little brothers. It happens the closer I am to you. The closer I am to you the more I accidentally bond with you. As in. When I was dating and living with my ex I used to know where he was. I could call and tell him to pick something up from the store before he leaves even though he hadn't told me I was at the store. I just know where he was at. I could feel his pain.
My teacher- or rather my old teacher who I called out for and found. Wont talk to me anymore. I don't know why. I've tried to contact him several times. This is getting bad for me. I'm only 25. I recently had a bad experience in my life go wrong and was flirting with death ever since I survived that my feelings have been getting stronger. This sounds funny- The stronger my gift (s) are getting the worse my body is breaking down inside. My seizures have been cutting threw the meds. For no reason I'll start throwing up blood. I have low blood sugar and fainting spells. Yes! I have been to the doctors. Several times. I just went to 3 doctors offices yesterday. I know I have a very weak body but for the past 3 weeks my energy is getting stronger and my body is getting so much weaker. I also sense at the moment someone very close to me is going to die. Usually it's I just feel someone in either mine or my little brothers life is going to die but his is different. It's someone who one of us holds very, very dear.
I need advice on how to handle all this. How to control this. It's all very stressful. I've tried asking people but gave up when people think I'm a freak. My body is where I can hardy leave the house. I went from working 40 hours to hardly making it threw 25.