I've been experiencing sexual attacks in my sleep for many years. I'm seeking insight, because I'm tired of it. What sets an OBE/astral projection apart from a lucid dream? I don't really know. All I can say is that when I have these OBE/astral experiences, something seems off. They don't feel like normal dreams. I'm scared to fall asleep sometimes, because I know I'm being haunted. The worst part of realizing the onset of sleep paralysis is, not knowing if there is someone or something already waiting for me in the dark.
I've felt my spirit lift out of my conscious body on many occasions. There's nothing like it. It can feel incredibly freeing, if I make it out of my house. I've flown around in what felt like another dimension. I've observed people and places I've never seen before.
I try not to panic when I'm aware that I'm in sleep paralysis. Because the shallow breathing is an uncomfortable feeling for me, I sometimes focus on separating my spirit from my physical body. When I am successful, I end up in my bedroom in the "astral world." Sometimes I am instantly assaulted. Other times, I freeze in fear as I watch an astral being try to take shape. Once this thing is upon me, it feels too powerful to oppose. Sometimes it's invisible. I'm not sure if it's always the same one that's after me. I threw one across the room once, and escaped through the window. I've felt for it's face a few instances. It felt hollow and had sharp teeth. I've tried communicating. No response as I called out in astral state.
It got really creepy the last time this happened to me. Well, the last couple times, it seemed the entity was trying to pleasure me. After he had taken me, he sat beside my bed near the window. I was under a sheet, trying to avoid looking. I peeked anyways. He appeared to have white, translucent skin. His face was hidden in shadow. He had done his deed and had no reason to stay. What happened next, I don't quite really understand. He said he wanted to show me something. At this point, I didn't know if he was using telepathy, if I really heard his voice, or if I was going crazy. I told him that if he wanted to reveal himself to me, I was too scared for that. He seemed intent on showing me his face and I was determined to leave, so I bargained with him. I told him that I was scared and that I would feel more comfortable if he revealed himself to me once I left the house. So, I climbed outside the window and looked back from the parking lot. What appeared before me was a clothed man or humanoid in men's clothing, with a mutilated face. I'm not sure if that's what his face really looks like. Could be that I'm not allowed to see it.
I looked up and saw what appeared to be my body floating in the sky. I tried to find the silver cord that was supposed to be connected to my physical body and spirit body. All I saw was a faint shimmering, ribbon-like, flow of light that seemed to connect me to the body floating above. Surrounding my house was a chain link fence with barbed wire. There was a forest on the other side. For some reason, forests have appeared in my dreams quite a bit recently.
So, I jumped up and went to climb the fence, he followed. I gripped onto the barbed wire tightly and looked at my hand. There was no blood or wound. I looked towards the forest, then I woke up.
Does anyone know what might be happening to me or what that entity could be?