I am 19 years old I work and go to college full time. The reason for me reaching out on here is because I am confused. I have these things happen to me me and I assume they are normal but when I discuss them I quickly realize this is not common.
So I would say I have always had strange things happen in my life that were unusual. When I was a little girl I apparently had a little boy friend that I played with that only I saw. This was only at my grandparents house. Come to find out a little boy drowned in the pool there. When I was 12 I got a form of sleep paralysis and saw a bunch of dots or energy making up a shape of a figure above me and I was terrified.
These increase and worsened. When I moved to my new home I remember feeling like I was being taken out of my bed and hanging upside down I saw a night light in the living room during this which I wasn't aware we had. In the morning I was curious if what I had was a dream and just to make sure we didn't have a night light I checked... There was. I would sleep and get sleep paralysis and not be able to move and see these shapes in human form but just energy, matter, dots? I'm not sure how to explain.
Anyways, I recently noticed these have been changing. I recently have been seeing actual people and hearing actual voices. I recall the feeling of sleep paralysis and I saw a man in front of me. I saw pants and he was talking to me I heard him. What is really scary about this was that I could see my t.v light on I saw my room and I knew this wasn't a dream. And this time I saw a physical person and not an energy and this time I heard it talk to me. It was an old man he was telling me to " Get up let's go for a walk" I didn't look up to see his face because I was scared. I prayed and closed my eyes and I saw something drift away and it was over.
Another time I was dreaming and I realized I was getting taken out of my dream and brought back to reality or being awakened. I was thing to myself not this again. I realized what was happening (which was new for me also).
So when I awoke I suppose I couldn't really move once again. I saw young woman sitting on my pillow she was looking down at me. I could hear her voice trying to talk to me but I was shutting out what she was saying because I was scared and I don't want to listen but I saw her figure she wasn't just energy or dots. I just didn't really look into her face once again because I was scared.
About maybe 2 months later she visited me again...
She reached out to me and was trying to take me?
I've never seen her before nor could I see her eyes she just looked pale to me. This was also the first time I've had a re occurring spirit like this.
Another time was when I was home from school about to take a nap in my living room when I saw a face of someone I've never seen appear in my ceiling, the faces changed to different ones over and over. I kept hearing " Look at me, look at me " it began to get louder and louder and I got scared this whole time this was occurring I was trying to look away and hope it would stop.
Now a scary experience was when I was laying on my bed (once again I got that numb feeling and I knew what was about to happen)
I saw a toy doll on my stomach. A arm was carrying the doll on my stomach. The arm was coming from under my bed and it began to violently shake the doll. I was horrified. I knew whatever this was wasn't nice and compared to the man and woman whom I didn't get bad vibes off of I usually know what something isn't so great.
My question is I have thought this was normal but as I think about it more and more this isn't normal. I don't know what to do. Before it would be dots and figure shapes. Now I am beginning to see actual people (except their faces because of my fear, and also because I'm slightly scared). I never use to hear anything now I do (I try to ignore it most of the time out of fear). I get taken out of my dreams back to reality and can tell when this will happen which I wasn't able to do before.
I've had other experiences but these are some main ones. In all honesty I can say sometimes after this I can sleep. O problem because I'm use to it. However sometimes I do get scared.
What is wrong with me?
Am I attracting these? Some are bad though. And are truly scary. What do I do?