I spent the weekend in New Orleans with a friend. We stayed in a tiny studio apartment in the French Quarter. I had a great time but sleep was difficult. The first night I felt the presence of a man and I could clearly hear a voice in my head I knew wasn't mine. I could tell the man was a jazz player and he really wanted to talk to me. My fear got the best of me and I found myself drowning out his words with my own thoughts which screamed, "go away". My major concern was that I felt he wanted me to open myself up more and I was afraid others would come if I did. He did not feel malicious but others could be. The next morning I told my friend about him and she freaked out because she said she had heard jazz music that night which she shrugged off as coming from outside. It made me feel less crazy.
What was also great was that I saw a clairvoyant tarot reader who, without me saying anything about the supernatural, told me I was clairvoyant and the people I hear and feel both in real life and in my dreams are real. It should have been creepy but there's something calming about feeling justified in your fear.
When we got back to the home, we thanked the man for letting us use his space and then asked if he would leave us alone because he was scaring me. Of course the next night was even more difficult. He was no longer there. Instead I kept waking up to the feeling I was being touched. The feeling was too strong to get rid of. I believe this weekend has really opened me up to the possibility of learning more and practicing techniques to one day allow me to feel safe enough to communicate. As of now,
I know it exists but I'm too terrified to listen.