Ever since I have been a young girl I have had the ability to communicate with earth bound spirits, normally the spirits I meet or feel are very troubled and some can be very angry. The one that remains with me today is a young girl named Laura, I met her when I was a young girl, I would have been around 4, I remember snippets from this age. My parents stayed in this house for 3 years, throughout this time I could see Laura up until the for sale sign went up.
At the time I was not entirely sure on why my parents wanted to move my mother was very upset. I had become a difficult and very aggressive child, I would destroy things for no good reason, attack my siblings, rip all of the wallpaper of the walls, I did all of this in the early hours of the morning when every one was fast asleep.
Please note I do not remember doing this, all I remember from this is waking up and Laura been on the end of my bed. I remember her pain and her sorrow at times she would terrify me and I would beg my mum for help. I would ask her why I can see her and no one else can, she would reply I was chosen, when I asked her by who she answered her father. I only remember seeing him twice, a horrid man dressed in a military suite, very tall and very angry, when he appeared, the room felt like ice, I have never felt so cold in all my life.
Laura would hide and he would scream for her, I remember been terrified of this man, his face was as if it had melted. This image has stayed with me my whole life he did not have one inch of happiness in his entire body, it was just pure hatred for any living thing, I could feel his hatred so much it would take over my body and I would lay there stiff as a board, scared to move but at the same time unable.
My parents recently told me we moved because of this man, he had appeared in one of my mothers dreams with Laura, only Laura was covered from head to toe in blood. My mother had experienced a flash back whilst dreaming. I recently looked up the old street in my local library and found an article on a young mother with two daughters who had been murdered by their father. The mothers maiden name was the same as mine - I am not sure on my family tree as all my grandparents are dead we only have photos to go by, I am trying to track my family tree but I am not getting very far.
I never did see the Laura's Mother and there was no picture in the paper all I know is the paper was dated from 1895. I have often thought about going to this house, I have seen it many times in the newspaper for sale, no one seems to stay there for no longer then 2 years now. Should I go back to this house? I do not know the answer to this question.
I have many experiences like this on a regular occurrence, many of the spirits I encounter have been here for a long time waiting for something. I can sometimes help them, some of them have often come to me in my dreams and asked for help, others are not so polite.
I am very sensitive to people, I can feel their sorrow when a loved one dies, I can feel their happiness on a special occasion.
I think the worst thing for me is I know when my loved ones are going to die, after all of my grandparents before they all died I knew something was wrong, I could feel it so strong, I could feel theire pain but most of all, I could see and feel what was to come.
All of the people I know have died in my life of Cancer, the most recent been my own Nana, she had cancer in every where imaginable, she could not talk but I could hear her screaming to die. And I could see what was happening, her slow deteriorating Aura I could feel her pain, her sorrow and her longing to die.
What has made me want to get answers to what I am happened yesterday, my partners Nana past away, I did not see her before she died but I could feel her before she past away, the pain her deterioration, her longing to say goodbye to the ones she loved. I tried my hardest to get my partner to visit his Nana but he refused, he did not want to see her so ill. My partner knows I have abilities he does not disbelieve them, it is just he finds them hard to believe, I can understand this for some people they need to see it to believe it. I did visit his nana, I told her I was sorry I knew she understood and knew what I was on about, she was not at peace but she knew I had tried.
Why is it I can feel so much pain, sorrow, heartache and many other feelings from not only people but spirits as well?
I can enter a house and instantly tell what or who is in the house I have no answers for this. I need answers to help me?
I have one other special gift which runs in my family, the ability to read palms, I can tell people's past and present, no one showed me this, I picked it up on my own, once I started my mum gave me direction and advised me of the do's and don'ts when reading a palm.
Please help me understand what it is I am? I have been trying to get answers for many years, I have seen many different kinds of people, I have even seen shrinks, they do not think I am mad. Because once they start to psycho babble at me, I can pin point their exact feelings and tell them, they have a look of shock on their face, I can tell them things they did not even know.
Sometimes it can be quite entertaining but then reality sinks in, they are now even more confused and even further away from getting answer. Please help me understand what I am?