Since I was younger I have always had the ability to see/sense/hear and speak to spirits the same way I would if talking to a friend. I have always had really weird experiences with the paranormal all my life and I have learned to just accept it and I try hard not to be afraid of what I may see, It is not uncommon for me to get random spirits visiting me out of nowhere I am like a radar for ghosts and picking up on everything that goes on around me.
Early last May I had a dream about a little girl named Susie and she was telling me how she died, it was very tragic. After the dream was over I woke up and I saw her standing by my bed but I was really tired that so I thought I might be seeing things so I didn't pay any attention to it and fell back asleep.
After that she started showing up a lot talking to me and telling me to do bad things but I would always refuse, Susie doesn't seem to like anyone and when I tell people about her it seems to make her very angry. Since she started visiting I have lost interest in praying and god all together and when people do talk about god I laugh in there face but I never know why I am laughing, when I try to pray I get a massive headache and feel like I'm going to pass out and I find it hard to bring out my words.
Once I was meditating and I went into a trance and she was there so I started talking to her and I told her that she needed to go towards the light and that I could help her through it but she said she didn't want to leave, that she wanted to stay and play and that she would be around for a long time. Then she smiled this evil little grin, gave me a nasty looked and walked off. She has put me into trances several times, once I ended up in her room and we were sitting on her bed and I was brushing her hair and she was talking about her dad. Another time, and this really freaked me out I was trying to go to sleep one night and I ended up in a trance I started to hear her talking and she was very angry, I heard like there were a thousand voices inside my head all yelling at me and saying I was mean and she was telling me that she was angry cause she thought I wanted to get rid of her, she made a horrible sound that I cannot describe and I tried to put my hand to my ears but I was paralyzed and couldn't move but I fought through it and woke up. When I don't pay attention to her she pinches me, and she does it all the time when I'm at school and it leaves physical marks on my skin.
She is 6 years old so I understand if that's the only way she feels she could get me to acknowledge her. I have another spirit and he has been with me longer than Susie has but he never shows himself to me, recently I started to learn more about him and this seems to make him want to show himself and tell me a bit about his life. Last Wednesday I felt like someone was watching me by my bed so I turned to look and it was him standing there. I didn't pay him attention and the next thing I knew I had gone into a trance.
As I was in this trance I felt my whole entire body start tingling and I knew I was about to become paralyzed so I thought to myself I have to work up the strength to try and move and not let this thing over power me. I then saw a black mass walking around beside my door watching me and then before my eyes, as I was still watching this mass I saw, like in a movie form the inside of a house with great detail and everything was moving so fast that it was over in no time. When the little slide show ended I tried to move and turn on my lamp but I was so weak and could barely move, I got to the lamp and as I turned the switch to put it on the light would not turn on, I then checked to see if it was plugged in and it was.
After trying to turn on the lamp I was so weak that I passed out and after I awoke from the trance. I have tried talking to this spirit and getting his name but he always gives multiple ones so I asked my mom and she said his name is Peter and I believe her because she is also psychic and Susie calls him by this name as well. He always seems to shy away when I try and get closer and find out more about him. I found out that he died in a car accident when he was fairly young like in his 20s or 30s and that he was a very close friend to my grandfather on my dad's side of the family.
I would really like to know why do spirits always seem to paralyze me when they are trying to communicate with me through visions and how do I stop this from happening? How do I get Susie to go to the light with out upsetting her and how do I get Peter to communicate with me more? Why do I find it so hard to pray or listen to something that is based around religion? I'm really sorry for the length but if anyone has some answers please feel free to leave a comment, thanks.