I have ALWAYS had the feeling of being watched since I was 3 and would see a particular dark shadow no matter where we moved and as of recently (past 5 years) have gotten extremely uncomfortable with my experiences. At this point in my life (mid twenties) I don't know if I'm just feeding a childhood fear or are there actually spirits with me?
I have had several experiences of being pulled or lifted out of my bed in that asleep yet awake phase in sleep. Hearing a loud boom/pop in my ear after the experience. Most recently, I have felt something in bed with me. A month ago I felt something behind me as I slept, that wrapped its arms around me. When it did that, I felt this buzz/jolt electric vibration sensation through me. I also felt immense heat underneath me. I was terrified but couldn't move because I was technically still asleep so I started praying in my head for it to go away and forced myself to wake up. When I did wake up I got up and slept in another room. I had a similar experience yesterday. I was in that same asleep but awake state, where I saw a man lying next to me but I only saw him through this veil and I felt him hold my left hand and got the same electric sensation. I once again started praying for him to go away.
Every so often whenever I have an ominous experience, I will call on my mother as I sleep and have also met up with her. I usually explain the experience or dream to her and she will provide me with an answer if she can. Mind you this happens as I sleep. She is alive and in my opinion, has intuitive ability.
I have been trying to control what I sense but it seems to amplify when late evening comes along and the lights are off. I just get this immense feeling that something is with me. It's gotten to the point where I need a source of light e.g a television to fall asleep comfortably. Any thoughts?