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I am really new to the site but I've observed some pretty knowledgeable and empathetic people around. I was hoping someone out there may have already experienced some of the things I've been dealing with. I don't really have anyone knowledgeable about these sorts of issues in my life.

I guess I should start from the beginning. Since I was a child, I have been able to intimately feel a connection with everyone around me. This is really hard to describe in text but I'll do my best to be articulate. From a ridiculously young age, I have not just felt the surface emotions of people, but really deep issues, and the connecting issues surrounding them. I had a tendency to ask people really personal questions that were directly related to something pertinent in their life within minutes of meeting them.

Thoughts and words started coming through clearer around middle school (Age 12). To the point where I now began to realize that this wasn't how everyone experienced life. Many times a day I will know exactly what someone is going to say, sometimes across the room from me completely. My best friend didn't believe in anything psychic related before he met me:) There were just too many times that I knew things before they happened for it to be a coincidence.

Upon further consideration, Age 12 was a really important year. I saw a spirit for the first time that year. It was at a friend's house I was visiting in Michigan. Before I ever saw it, I felt! There was such negative feeling in the house. And it felt like people were actually drained of their energy.

It was a very dark energy mass, with partial form hovering up near the ceiling. I was really scared at first but it was my best friend so I told him everything. He actually believed me and was relieved because he couldn't describe why he and his family had been so depressed lately. We prayed and I told the spirit to leave, which it did. I could actually feel it leave.

My dreams and "waking dreams" as I call them started about that time too! I dream about things that will mostly happen to myself, but not very often. More on dreams towards the end. My waking visions have dramatically increased with age. It's very hard to describe, but in my mind's eye I will see "video clips" of things happening, lots and lots of things. Sometimes they are seemingly mundane, other times very important. When I was 15 I "saw" my step dad have a heart attack 2 weeks before it happened.

I am 24 now. When I speak to people, I try to do it with love and help them through the problems that I see. I assume that if there is a purpose for this gift, that must be it. I'm never wrong about the feelings I get about a person's character and whether or not they're lying to me so it's nice for counseling purposes. I am really grateful for my ability to perceive other people's perspectives.

My real struggles are principally with protecting myself, and finding a way of directing/harnessing my experiences. This is where I could really use some help!

I am absolutely elated to be around some individuals. Their energy is like a high and we feed off of each others' positivism. However, there are negative people out there, like really negative people, and I have an EXTREMELY difficult time shutting out anyone/everyone around me. It's like this flood gate of connectedness, which can be wonderful or sickening depending.

There are times where I just have to escape away to my room and focus on my breathing, it's like being caught up in a whirlpool.

If that is part of the celestial deal for getting to experience what I do, then I guess I can live with it. I am really new to the site but I've observed some pretty knowledgeable and empathetic people around. I was hoping someone out there may have already experienced some of the things I've been dealing with. I don't really have anyone knowledgeable about these sorts of issues in my life.

I guess I should start from the beginning. Since I was a child, I have been able to intimately feel a connection with everyone around me. This is really hard to describe in text but I'll do my best to be articulate. From a ridiculously young age I have not just felt the surface emotions of people, but really deep issues, and the connecting issues surrounding them. I had a tendency to ask people really personal questions that were directly related to something pertinent in their life within minutes of meeting them.

Thoughts and words started coming through clearer around middle school (Age 12). To the point where I now began to realize that this wasn't how everyone experienced life. Many many times a day I will know exactly what someone is going to say, sometimes across the room from me completely. My best friend didn't believe in anything psychic related before he met me:) There were just too many times that I knew things before they happened for it to be a coincidence.

Upon further consideration, Age 12 was a really important year. I saw a spirit for the first time that year. It was at a friends house I was visiting in Michigan. Before I ever saw it, I felt! There was such negative feeling in the house. And it felt like people were actually drained of their energy.

It was a very dark energy mass, with partial form hovering up near the ceiling. I was really scared at first but it was my best friend so I told him everything. He actually believed me and was relieved because he couldn't describe why he and his family had been so depressed lately. We prayed and I told the spirit to leave, which it did. I could actually feel it leave.

My dreams and "waking dreams" as I call them started about that time too! I dream about things that will mostly happen to myself, but not very often. More on dreams towards the end. My waking visions have dramatically increased with age. It's very hard to describe, but in my mind's eye I will see "video clips" of things happening, lots and lots of things. Sometimes they are seemingly mundane, other times very important... When I was 15 I "saw" my step dad have a heart attack 2 weeks before it happened.

I am 24 now. When I speak to people, I try to do it with love and help them through the problems that I see. I assume that if there is a purpose for this gift, that must be it. I'm never wrong about the feelings I get about a person's character and whether or not they're lying to me so its nice for counseling purposes: I am really grateful for my ability to perceive other people's perspectives.

My real struggles are principally with protecting myself, and finding a way of directing/harnessing my experiences. This is where I could really use some help!

I am absolutely elated to be around some individuals. Their energy is like a high and we feed off of each others' positivism. However. There are negative people out there, like really negative people, and I have an EXTREMELY difficult time shutting out anyone/everyone around me. It's like this flood gate of connectedness, which can be wonderful or sickening depending.

There are times where I just have to escape away to my room and focus on my breathing, its like being caught up in a whirlpool.

If that is part of the celestial deal for getting to experience what I do, then I guess I can live with it.

I essentially have no family left but a mother who I am sadly disconnected from. She is a very conservative Christian, who coincidentally is a Prophetic dreamer... She has dreams for people in her life on a weekly basis. These dreams are always accurate and have actually helped a lot of people. She only puts her gifts in a religious context... She won't talk about them with anyone but the person they're for and keeps a dream journal which I bet would be a blast to read.

Alright, now here's the part that has me legitimately concerned for my well-being. I go through periods of dreaming. I.e. Sometimes I won't have a dream, or meaningful dream for months. BUT, then there are times where I can not stop dreaming! To the point where I hardly get any sleep and wake up not feeling refreshed at all! On top of that, the dreams that I know are of some significance are always incredibly real. I feel things physically in those dreams, which can be really cool, but also really scary.

I am still reeling from an experience I had last night that kept me up. I was having an intense dream, one with a girl that I'm not sure that I've ever met. She was confessing something to me (about something unrelated to me), and she was so upset and crying ridiculously profusely. It was raining a little bit and we had this really meaningful embrace and I was holding her and just letting her cry and she just kept sobbing. But I could feel the moisture, and the girl and I "was there".

That's when things got out of control. All of the sudden it was as though I was pulled from my dream into another place. I was very aware of the fact that I was conscience, however I didn't remember anything about the general time frame I was in or where I was, I just knew I was in a prone position.

I heard what sounded like talking or sounds but it was very muffled, this was within seconds of "teleporting" to my new location. I was still confused, after all I had been stolen from my dream.

Out of nowhere I heard a voice in my head, a very knowing voice. It said very plainly "Now is the time to pray". And I at that point I knew I was supposed to listen to that voice. Within a split second I was calling out "God", and even quicker than that my entire perspective zoomed really fast upwards to this incredibly bright white light, and there was a circle with a very intricate symbol that I do not really remember. As soon as that happened I was hovering and laying within my sleeping body. I was weightless and felt separate from my physical body. And I could see and feel this blob like creature attaching itself to me.

I was so scared! I was trying to scream for god or Jesus but nothing would come out. I was silenced and paralyzed but eventually was able to "burst through".

I have only had a handful or so dreams where I felt like I was actually being attacked. I don't see spirits too often (that I know of) and when I do I don't see them too well. I made eye contact with an evil spirit in a dream once about a year ago... Last night is about the only thing that's come close to that in scariness...

So how many of my friends know all of this stuff about me? My really good old friends know, but I've lost track of most of them, I basically have no one to talk to about any of this. I feel so completely different than everyone else and sometimes its just a little too much.

If anyone has any ideas on how I could focus/hone these abilities or on how I can better protect myself, I would really appreciate it!

Thank you for taking the time to read this, I know I can be a bit wordy:)

Rob

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Timfaraos (426 posts)
 
6 years ago (2015-03-08)
You say you don't know anyone with heavenly connections, or a medium, to ask for advice. Well, I see one in your life now! It's your mum! Those of us with christian parents, are BLESSED AND PROTECTED BY THEIR PRAYERS! Ask me, I KNOW! She's very sensible to put her psychic dreams under a christian perspective, that protects her from any demonic activity and influence. If only you did the same! You don't need to visit a medium, to channel unknown spirits or 'guides' into your life, (and pay her thousands of dollars to do it! LOL!) Go to church, it's FREE! And if you don't know how to put up a shield, don't worry! Because the only shield you'll need, the most powerful one in the universe, is our LOVING GOD JESUS CHRIST, AND HIS HOLY ANGELS AND SAINTS! Pray to them, and fast from meat and dairy whenever you can. Read the bible and psalms, and PRACTICE the bible. And stay away from sin and occult spirit practices. Simple as that! Best of luck! God bless!
tblack12 (1 posts)
 
6 years ago (2014-06-20)
I know this is an old post but What Mojo had experienced is something very similar to my life. I am desperate at this point to find a teacher to help me protect myself. I am not able to put up a shield anymore. My "dark" spirit has been attacking me in my sleep. The only way to protect myself is I grab onto my husband and drain him of his energy. I really need help and I am scared.
LouraFriend (guest)
 
10 years ago (2010-04-28)
Rob,

Interesting post. Did you ever consider that your mom, being very religious and given prophetic dreams, might be praying for you? It seems to me that your dream with God in it was a battle. God's voice was there, and so were demons.

This is lengthy, but to break down what I believe:

1. We are all spiritual beings and stuff from the God side as well as demonic side can occur. They are not all the same side.

2. Coming from my Biblical perspective, what good comes from these gifts towards others? In other words, I ask myself if my gifts (as I call them. More on that in post) are truly beneficial to other people, or do they fill me with fear or pride? If they aren't doing anyone any good, I do not pursue them.

3. The more open I am with others about my experiences, the more I find I am far from alone.

4. I strongly believe and have seen it happen in my own life, that watching certain movies, listening to certain kinds of music, reading certain books (even popular fiction) and playing certain video games or experimenting with tarot cards, Ouija boards, etc. Has a ton to do with obtaining and growing in psychic abilities. If you want it to stop, action should be taken in these areas. Being open about what's happening and asking for prayer is also extremely helpful.

5. As I said before, I think there are two sides to spiritual stuff: God's side and not God's side. Neither is neutral and one produces frightening results. If you are creeped out, there is a reason. I will probably sound like your mom when I say this, but I think the "not God's" side are demonic spirits, hence the creepy factor. Demons hate people, but they can be very subtle and manipulative, playing on pride, anger, and fear. Most people are afraid of them, but many others are enticed by them and believe they are the ones in control (that would be an example of pride at work).

My thought is that God gives me "psychic" experiences for my good or for the benefit of others (not what I think would be beneficial, but what God says is-like your mom). I have never tried to conceal the truth, blast it at people, etc. When I have a "message" I say it gently but plainly and so far no one has "seen the light" and turned from their ways. But that is not my part. Mine is to just deliver the message. Also, so far I have only been given "messages" to other believers or myself.

I do hope you visit my post for more detailed info. I would be glad to answer any other questions too at bigloumedia [at] gmail.com.

I am wondering why you and your mom are at odds with each other? Somewhat unrelated to this post, I know too many people disconnected to their families. This past year 5 of my close friends and family members have died, one of them holding a life long grudge toward her only living relative and sister. It may cost your pride to reconnect, but it would be worth it.

Sincerely,

Loura
mojo (1 stories) (2 posts)
 
12 years ago (2009-02-03)
Wow Academylin, thank you! What you said about mixing senses with mine/other's feelings really made sense.

Also, I see what you mean about the negativity manifesting itself. Their family was definitely going through a rough patch... The mom was dying of cancer.

I am a HUGE proponent of Synchronicity!
I see patterns in everything...

"You probably find that sometimes you may have to cleverly re phrase what you want to say so it seems the other person has actually come up with the idea/ solution don't you?"-academylin

Awesome observation, very true.

I don't mind the vivid dreaming at all, I was just afraid that I was being attacked in that particular dream. The part where I felt detached from my physical body was scary because I could see and feel something else attached to my sleeping body as well.
There have been other dreams that have scared the crap out of me but that I'm sure had definite meaning.

Also, I was comforting the sobbing girl in my dream, I'm interested to hear how you interpret her as a guide!

I've read about Edgar Cayce extensively. Do you think he had access to some sort of metaphorical Universal Hall of Records?

My belief system is definitely not what it once was...

I still believe that there must be a creator of the universe, and that love is the most important thing therein. Although I do recognize the importance of negative experiences in the process of building character/wisdom and appreciation... That's about all I've got though.

I do deal with negativity at times, mostly from a childhood that wasn't so hot... I find that I can make my life positive if I want to so I typically push those negative feelings and memories aside and try to focus on love.

I'm definitely going to go through your recommended reading material as soon as I am done with this post.

Feel free to respond in any length you like! I love reading and you've got some excellent insights/information!

Thanks again,

Rob
academylin (14 stories) (303 posts)
 
12 years ago (2009-02-03)
http://www.psychic-experiences.com/real-psychic-story.php?story=2118

See here for potection tips, hmm short post from me, how can that be?! Lol 😆
academylin (14 stories) (303 posts)
 
12 years ago (2009-02-03)
Mojo, contd...

The whirlpool feeling, I may need you to elaborate on, but I suspect it occours in your chest area and thus can be explained as the gathering of feelings (5 sense awareness) plus emotions (yours and others you pick up on,) and they all mix to an understanding within your heart chakra! (acheiving a kind of theta awareness!)

Sometimes and by some people this I think gets interpreted as a psychic attack. But I believe it only gets seen as this if the person it is happening to has lots of negativity within them. I don't have any negativity and I call it a psychic roll! Once you realise what's going on in your energy centres (chakras) and why, you stop being upset/concerned by it!

There are ways to control your dreaming (I find a good one is drinking lots and lots of wine before bedtime! Hic! Lol, this negates the majority of them!) You can also limit how often you awake due to unnerving dreams. Look up Edgar cayce for this one.
Your "physical" feeling in your dreams is also due to your enhanced theta awareness I believe.

Your dream itself sounds to me like you were on the verge of an obe. Anne V is the oracle when it comes to this topic, so I will reserve my ramblings for fear they sound too naive and hope she will help you here.

Being able to protect yourself will come from having a strong belief system. I think the girl in your dreams was probably a guide, she would have been there to help you, but... I feel an essay coming on! Eeeeek, seems I've already done it!

Have a read over what I've said and pick up research topics from it, a good place to start for understanding is http://mysilentecho.com/dreamtongue.html
And do a bit of looking into your chakras and energy centres and what they control.

There's a link to follow re; simple protection guidelines,

Backatcha!
Linx
academylin (14 stories) (303 posts)
 
12 years ago (2009-02-03)
Hi Mojo,

Lately I have realised that the more I try to break down explanations for people like you, the more "out there" it starts to sound, so bear with me (the loon) and I'll give it a go.

First, interesting story, I will deal with the dream bit later, need to read that again!

There is a great empath ability with you, you also have the ability to see the past so there must be clair voyance with you too.

The telepathy you spoke of comes with a clear theta connection, this means you are able to take physical sights and sounds and mix them succesfully with your feelings and the feelings of others around you to produce successful solutions, this is also evident in making the depressed family recognise their depression, thus being able to help them lift (metaphorically and literally) their spirits! All the "bad spirit" was was an amalgamation of so much negativity in one place, ie; their depression/ gloom.

The fact also that you recognise coincidences in the manner of "too much of a coincidence" means you posses a suceptible awareness. This is a good thing. A Bigger awareness than most people, if you like! And seemingly natural too, with experience this could lead you to great places! And more importantly, you are right, there is no such thing as coincidences, they are synchronicities and too many people DON'T recognise them!

And you have already begun to heal people. Kind of like a soothsayer if you will... Healing people with words, This is in fact how I began my journey too! You probably find that sometimes you may have to cleverly re phrase what you want to say so it seems the other person has actually come up with the idea/ solution don't you?

So there we are... You're BRILL!

I'll re read the dream bit and come back to you if I may?
Love Linx
mojo (1 stories) (2 posts)
 
12 years ago (2009-02-03)
Thank you for your thoughts! I don't know anyone with spiritual heavenly connections advice or any mediums 😢, do you? I've never made a shield either, but I'm willing to try. How does one go about making that sort of protection?

I have had fairly vivid experiences while meditating in the past...you're right I should try that more often. And helping people is definitely the way to go 😊
isisevangeline (3 stories) (172 posts)
 
12 years ago (2009-02-03)
For your sensitivity toward the positive and negative. I would learn to build a shield against the negative. Enough where you don't feel the pain. But not too much where you don't feel the tingles or be aware of them.
I believe your path isn't something I could give advice on. Just the shields. I worry that any advising could affect your path.
But maybe getting some Medium's advice and someone who has some Spiritual Heavenly connections advice could help you.
hound7 (31 posts)
 
12 years ago (2009-02-03)
i would advise you to KEEP THIS UP:) things like these can REALLY help people.

I would also like to recommend meditation. You experienced a strange dream, where you felt like you left your body... Maybe Astral Projection is the easiest way to "strengthen" these abilities.

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