A year ago I started at a new job. On my 3rd day I met one of my fellow collegue. We first met in the stationary room as we were gathering stationary for our own office. We were standing back to back when I spun around to say good morning. My fellow collegue spun around to reply to me. That's when I saw him look at me wide-eye, stuttered, then mumbled a 'goodmorning'. I thought that was quite peculiar but brushed it off thinking 'okay, he stutters, and what?'. As the days went by I would see him walk past my office staring at me like I was the only thing in the room. His stare was very intensed that I started to feel a bit uncomfortable about it but what really bugged me, was that no-one else could see it. It got to a point where I'd get 'flashes' in my mind's eye that he was walking around the corner and I would see him, and no doubt, I would.
I was so gobsmacked about the whole deal that it started to affect my work performance. I got so distracted at work that all I could focus on was how he could make me 'tip my scales'. It irritated me more when I was having a 'low' day and he was looking so vibrant and happy, in my mind I was thinking, 'Wow, this guy is draining me!'. One night at a staff do, we actually got talking. The funny thing is, I know this person, his eyes are so familiar, yet truth beknown, I've never met him before. He seems so familiar to me but his physical self is very different. As time went by our friendship became more close. We have so many things in common, and have the same views in life, etc.
Then one night as we were talking out on my porch, I started to drift asleep while he was chatting away, all of a sudden I blurted out 'What took you so long?' his reply was 'I'm here now'. As this conversation was going on I was seeing a vision that was centuries and centuries ago where I was standing on a cliff, a totally different person, looking out to the sea, night and day. I remember having these dreams as a kid but I never knew what it meant, I thought that in my dream I was just a lonely woman who refused to love but that night falling asleep on my porch the vision made sense to me. I wasn't a lonely woman staring out to the sea, I was waiting for someone. The one person that I loved and promised he would come home. He never did. While still falling asleep on the porch I said to him, 'But I waited for you, and you promised you'd come back'. His reply was 'I'm so sorry, I could have never came back to you, alive.' After he said that I kind of came back to the 21st century snapped wide awake and looked at him in shock/suprise etc. He looked back at with this sadness in his eye's yet was happy I remembered who he was.
I have fallen for him all over again yet am keeping my distance. For starters, whatever is going on with us I cannot seem to grasp it or want to comprehend it. Also the other reason is that I had 3 visions of him the other night. One was that we would be together and he would die in 2012 or between the age of 35-36 which is how old he would be in 2012. The other vision is that I would be pregnant to him, a boy, yet still he dies in 2012. The last one is that we would be together and he would live and life would carry on or should I say, finish off what we started centuries ago. I don't know why I have been given these 3 visions, they are like pathways to choose from. I can see the outcome but what am I suppose to do for the here and now? We haven't really spoke for about a fortnight at the moment, which in a way makes good sense as I feel I need to figure this all out because it's someone's life at risk depending on the decisions I make or he makes. We haven't been intimate yet, the feelings are there but not one of us makes a move. I feel that I'm in no rush to move things along, because I keep having visions that I will marry him, that he has already claimed me. It is weird to be feeling these things and seeing it, as I've never experienced this sort of thing before. Yet I also feel that if I don't sort out what I'm to do, I could just run out of time.