I'm 23 years old. I feel things that don't seem normal to me. When I was 5 or so I would see things. Be it little red or green dots, dark forms, or human forms. When I was younger about 14 or so, I felt like an incubus was bothering me. I searched about it thinking it was sleep apnea. It drove me crazy to the point that by the time I was 19 I checked myself into a mental institution. I was diagnosed three different times. Stuff would knock on my window. I would wake up with scratches on me that I didn't do to myself. I would see shadows or figures.
In between those years, I got down with astral projection. It scared me a few times. Sometimes when I touch old things, I can see what had happened. I can feel if something is good or bad when it is near me. I used to be able to manipulate the wind. The wind usually would guide me to whether or not something good or bad was coming along or if something was about to happen.
I don't know what I am. When I read my tarot cards, they are usually on point. The only thing I can think of to explain why I have this is either because when I was born, I was born premature, 2lbs 7 oz, almost died... Came home with a breathing machine, or it was inherited through my mothers side.
My grandfather was a Buddhist monk who meditated everyday. When he became ill with diabetes and lost his sight, I was the only one he could recognize. We were not close which sucked, but I felt like there was some type of connection. An aunt by marriage on my mother's side was possessed twice on Halloween. There is nobody in my family I can talk to. They all think I'm on drugs and I'm crazy.
Where do I even start? Is there an apprenticeship or something available near me? Thank you everyone for your time. If you would like to reach me my aol SN: njlingling -or- firstname.lastname@example.org