Please READ and Please HELP...
I have had many experiences at different times throughout my life and I'm hoping that someone can help answer some of my questions.
The 1st was when I was about 9 years old. I was on the 1st floor of my mother's house in Jersey City, NJ when I could hear a baby crying through the heater vent as I was lying there waiting for the heat to come on after playing outside.
Years later, maybe 13 years old, I was in my bedroom looking in my mirror and in that mirror I could see the dresser mirrors in the next bedroom over. It was a long dresser with 2 small, skinny mirrors on both sides. I saw a dark shadow move past the 1st mirror then the 2nd mirror without passing the wall in the middle.
Also, when I was much younger, younger than 8, I would say, same house, I had, still have, memories of being someone else, remembered being a grown woman and walking into that very house, but it looked a little different. I also remember being a baby, being in the crib and even a hospital stay in a crib where my mother left me she says because at that time in the early 70's, Parents couldn't stay overnight with their babies. They would just call you if they needed you.
When I was 15 living at the Jersey Shore at that time in new house my parents just bought to leave the city for good. I became heavily interested in the Paranormal, the spirit world, anything weird. I had about 5 books from the Library about Wicca, The Paranormal, Ghosts etc. I got comfy on the living room floor to read, before I could read. I noticed about 5 small toddler sized, black, quick childlike moving shadows behind the other end of the couch and they all ducked down to hide (not simultaneously).
I had never been so frightened in my life...NEVER! It gave the worst sensation. I ran and left lights, pillows books right there, TV on and everything. Jumped under the covers with my mother, covering my face until morning. I kept this to myself until I was about 23. And had already been in my own apartment since I was 18 and had 2 kids already.
It was a mother/daughter house and my sister lived downstairs. I came over for a cook-out and I began to try to pour my heart out and tell her this story and she stopped me and said, "Wait. Were they small, black and with childlike swift movement?" MY HEART DROPPED. She had seen them downstairs as well.
WHAT ARE THESE DARK SHADOWS? I THINK THEIR EVIL! I've seen apparitions that are not black. THEY ARE SCARY TOO! BUT NOT LIKE A BLACK SHADOW THOUGH!
There's more. I heard a conversation in my head - then those people arrived.
I've had a white apparition walk straight through me then through the wall.
I've looked at peoples or their pictures and knew their names.
Scary lucid dreams, I've thought of what someone might say then they said it.
What are the dark shadows? And am I psychic?
I don't mind knowing what someone will say but I don't want to see any apparitions. They have been far apart -- each episode! Events that have happened over the 35 years of my life. When I've seen them I was so completely terrified. I would pray and pray to never see again. It seemed as if the Lord listened but then they came back years later.
Now back again! In my new house of 7 years (I never seen anything in this house before) why now?
Can someone help me with any of this. Please, ad thank you in advance.