Please READ and Please HELP...
I have had many experiences at different times throughout my life and I'm hoping that someone can help answer some of my questions.
The 1st was when I was about 9 years old. I was on the 1st floor of my mother's house in Jersey City, NJ when I could hear a baby crying through the heater vent as I was lying there waiting for the heat to come on after playing outside.
Years later, maybe 13 years old, I was in my bedroom looking in my mirror and in that mirror I could see the dresser mirrors in the next bedroom over. It was a long dresser with 2 small, skinny mirrors on both sides. I saw a dark shadow move past the 1st mirror then the 2nd mirror without passing the wall in the middle.
Also, when I was much younger, younger than 8, I would say, same house, I had, still have, memories of being someone else, remembered being a grown woman and walking into that very house, but it looked a little different. I also remember being a baby, being in the crib and even a hospital stay in a crib where my mother left me she says because at that time in the early 70's, Parents couldn't stay overnight with their babies. They would just call you if they needed you.
When I was 15 living at the Jersey Shore at that time in new house my parents just bought to leave the city for good. I became heavily interested in the Paranormal, the spirit world, anything weird. I had about 5 books from the Library about Wicca, The Paranormal, Ghosts etc. I got comfy on the living room floor to read, before I could read. I noticed about 5 small toddler sized, black, quick childlike moving shadows behind the other end of the couch and they all ducked down to hide (not simultaneously).
I had never been so frightened in my life...NEVER! It gave the worst sensation. I ran and left lights, pillows books right there, TV on and everything. Jumped under the covers with my mother, covering my face until morning. I kept this to myself until I was about 23. And had already been in my own apartment since I was 18 and had 2 kids already.
It was a mother/daughter house and my sister lived downstairs. I came over for a cook-out and I began to try to pour my heart out and tell her this story and she stopped me and said, "Wait. Were they small, black and with childlike swift movement?" MY HEART DROPPED. She had seen them downstairs as well.
WHAT ARE THESE DARK SHADOWS? I THINK THEIR EVIL! I've seen apparitions that are not black. THEY ARE SCARY TOO! BUT NOT LIKE A BLACK SHADOW THOUGH!
There's more. I heard a conversation in my head - then those people arrived.
I've had a white apparition walk straight through me then through the wall.
I've looked at peoples or their pictures and knew their names.
Scary lucid dreams, I've thought of what someone might say then they said it.
What are the dark shadows? And am I psychic?
I don't mind knowing what someone will say but I don't want to see any apparitions. They have been far apart -- each episode! Events that have happened over the 35 years of my life. When I've seen them I was so completely terrified. I would pray and pray to never see again. It seemed as if the Lord listened but then they came back years later.
Now back again! In my new house of 7 years (I never seen anything in this house before) why now?
Can someone help me with any of this. Please, ad thank you in advance.
I haven't lived in that house since I was 15yrs old. I'm 36 now and have moved a lot since then. I'm working on getting a grip on my own fear & not allowing my fear to totally take me over, which for me causes panic attacks.
I know in the headline of this story I asked if I were haunted, I don't think that I am haunted, especially by any demons. I was 15 when I got those books from the Library. I returned them immediately. I have never seen those (specific) childlike shadows again. I have seen shadow people here and there in other places but not those specific ones I saw at that time.
I believe they had stayed in that house for a period of time but eventually left because there was nothing dark or negative about the house only good and positivity, my mother is very close to God and a different sister lives down there now, she's very religious and her son is an ordained minister. So, I think because the energy of the house has changed... They left!
My sister never new about the books. Within the 2 days I had the books I learned a quick lesson & had no interest in reading those kind of things after that... In fact, I never actually had time to read the books. I sat down with them, was ready to read but was watching TV, I picked them up glanced over them trying to decide what to read 1st then I saw the shadows and that was it! I ran & returned the books to the Library the following day... I got rid of those damn books in a hurry! Lol
One more thing...
A few years after this I was no longer living at home, had my own apartment since I was 18. I came to my moms for a cookout. My sister & I were alone in the backyard. She privately told me that one day she saw these childlike shadows downstairs in her section of the house (It's a mother/daughter style house)...
She had no knowledge of the books or what I had seen... I never discussed these things with my mother or sister until I was in my upper twenties... As a younger person or a kid I had no where to turn and no one to discuss this with without either not being believed or being ridiculed so I kept it to myself!
Thank you for your thoughts and ideas.
I appreciate you and everyone here taking the time to give their advice and opinions. Although I may not agree with everything, it is appreciated.