Ever since I was a child, I knew I was different. I had trouble fitting in, and no one seemed to understand me. When I was about 4 or 5 I would experience Deja Vu frequently, more than once a week, I remember thinking why does this day keep happening? What's going on why do I keep feeling that? I had about 2-3 encounters with spirits, or seeing shadows appearing rapidly when I was a kid, or hearing strange noises. I couldn't sleep at nights, and often would question life at such a tender age, I had nightmares at least once a month, I would wake up crying or scared and had the feeling someone was trying to harm me.
I think I may be an empath, because ever since I can remember, I've always been very sensitive, and sensitive to others emotions. If I saw a relative or a friend crying, I'd immediately feel sad and start crying with them. I'd pick up on their emotions fast, and even if I wanted to feel happy I just couldn't. So I found myself having constant mood swings. Till' this day, I still feel like that, but it's not as strong as when I was a child. Even as a teenager, it was still strong. I was always the go-to person for advice in my circle of friends, and I often felt like I didn't know who I was, because I kept having a mixture of emotions, that I was just confused as to why I would feel like that. It's as if, all of my friends' emotions would overwhelm me. I can't pick up others emotions as easily as I used to, does this mean I am no longer an empath? I'm only 20 but I did have rough teenage years, and frequent mood changes, so that maybe could have triggered my sensitivity towards others.
When I was 14, I went through a near death experience, I was on my way to school I was running late so I was walking fast, I decided I should start running because one of the administrators was about to shut the gate close, but all of a sudden I slowed my pace I had this bad feeling that I shouldn't run, I knew the gate was closing, but even so something told me I should walk slowly so I did, out of nowhere I hear gunshots, 3 to be exact they were about 4-5 inches away from me I immediately dropped to the ground along with the other students that were walking next to me. Had I ran towards the gate I could have been killed or badly injured.
That wasn't the first time that's happened. There's been a couple of times that if I go somewhere I get a bad vibe from the area or a person, about 5 months ago I was collecting money around the neighborhood for a deceased neighbor to help pay for the costs of her casket and other stuff, I was with my friend and cousin, we kept knocking on doors and such, we approach the last door towards the back I get a bad feeling about it, and I tell them, "Guys, I have a bad feeling about this one. Let's not knock on that door. Let's just leave." They didn't listen to me, they wanted to go anyway I was hesitant about it, and actually felt scared to approach it, but I went along with it anyway because we needed as much money as possible so I ignored the feeling and worked up the courage to knock, we knocked a couple of times. No answer but then by like the 5th or 6th knock they started opening the door, I started explaining how we needed to raise money for our deceased neighbor, I wasn't even halfway in fact I only said a couple of words, and the black lady just slams the door right in front of my face, and as we were walking away she threw something at us, and I could've sworn I saw her pointing out a gun through the window
I'm confused as to what I may have, are these just mere coincidences? Or do I actually have a gift? I'd love to hear your input on this, and hope to get some help:)
I asked him to save my great grandmother so she doesn't die, I know that you can't stop someone from dyeing if that there destiny but I gesse I was sad that I just wished he could of did that for me. My point is Believe in god and Heaven and all that because it is true and try not to be the kind of person who needed to see to believe because you might just miss out on stuff ❤