It's a lot to read, but please help me. I'm at a loss of understanding many things.
I've just realized how strange my life is. But it really is not strange because from this site I have learned that a lot of people have similar things happening with them. I don't know where to start, so I'm just going to begin with the first thing that pops in my head.
I have this friend who I've been friends with for along time but she has a judgmental mother who holds grudges and doesn't let her hangout with me anymore, but back in --I think it was like the 8th grade-- I'm not sure, but we used to be really good friends and we would tell each other everything, I used to be able to feel what people were feeling or something I don't know but I felt something sometimes.
Long story short; one day we had a sleepover. She told me how she could change the colors around in my room in her head and that there was this girl who had started hanging around her that summer, (a spirit.) She told me she made the girl up and talked to her. I was like... Okay...? But I wasn't creeped out. Yet.haha.
She told me how the girl would tell her to do bad things and that was the reason behind her rebellious behavior.
I told her that she's an evil spirit and to tell her to leave. She said that she had already tried but she always came back.
I told her again the girl was an evil spirit. My friend told me the girl was sitting on my desk. THAT creeped me out. I said, "That's creepy."
I couldn't see the girl but I felt her presence. I told my friend that she needed to get rid of the spirit. The spirit didn't like that. My friend's eyes got wide and she told me to get down (my room was completely dark by the way). I did and pulled the covers over my head (like that would help...haha) (I was in my bed and my friend was on the bean bag at the edge of it) and I closed my eyes. I could see everything in the room. This woman with black long hair was coming after me with a knife about ready to drive it into my chest and just as the knife was almost at me, this green force field emanated from me and she couldn't touch me. I saw all of this under my sheets with my eyes closed. Then she went after my friend and began hurting her. Then it was quiet, my friend said "she left"
But then the spirit came back and we said in the name of heavenly father, jesus and the holy ghost I command you to leave, probably 10 times and she finally left.
WHAT WAS THE GREEN FORCE FIELD? What are your thoughts on this?
Ever since I was little I've always felt there was a presence around me when I was alone. It went away for a long time but came back around last January I think. It's kind of hard for me to sleep at night. It's not that I'm afraid, it;s just that "I don't know what's going on, why I feel like I'm being watched sometimes. I eventually fall asleep by distracting my self with thoughts of the day's events.
I used to go through sleep paralysis a lot, but not anymore. Why do you think that is? I have life like dreams almost every night, but haven't been able to remember them lately because my mother barges in my room and I don't have time to go through the dream in my head so that I will remember it.
I understand what my dreams tell me. Everything that go's on in them relates to my life. Sometimes my dreams are visions but the event usually doesn't take place for a month or 2. I have a very open mind, and practice. I'm not very good at it really, yet and can't tell if the oil in the water I'm trying to move is going in the direction I want because of a breeze or something.
I'm Mormon, and do not believe in what they teach a lot of the time. I don't know what I believe in religiously but it doesn't bother me that much. I'm a very relaxed person, usually going with the flow of my life and try to have a positive energy about everything. I'm generally a good kid. I'm more mature than most my age (I'm 16) I don't waste my time caring so much about what people think of me, and I know its not my place to judge others.
What is your opinion on all of this? Just tell me anything that could help me progress in anyway, and have a better understanding of things.
Thank you for taking the time to read my long entry:)