Sometimes, and in the most RANDOM moments, I hear voices say my name. I told my mother and she is going to take me to a shrink. I wish I had not told her. I know I am not crazy! Trust me! Whenever I hear the voices, it is in a slight whisper. Sometimes it's in a voice of a friend, or somebody standing nearby, but that person didn't say anything at all. That's how I know it wasn't them. And sometimes it's a random guy's voice, or a little girl's voice, or a woman's voice. All of which I do not recognize. Before I thought I was the only one with this problem. Then a friend tells me something similar, and then I find this site! Sometimes, and more often then usual, I have been having nervous breakdowns. Where I CANNOT. STOP CRYING! And since my mother isn't usually around for these, and my father is at work, and my lil sis doesn't really care, I act as my own mother. Like not ME but it's my own arm brushing my hair away from my face-and in my head I tell myself (not in my own voice but a kind gentle woman's voice) saying that I am alright. I am okay. To calm down. Go wash my face. Go to sleep. I don't know why I do this. I have recently tried to stop "telling" myself to calm down. And everything is alright, but it was harder than I thought.
And then my cat! She ALWAYS knows when I am sad. She comes to me, and lies at my head. And in a few minutes, all f my pain from crying, or angry-ness, or whatever is gone. Can somebody please explain to me what is wrong? Or what I think is right? I would really like to know. Oh, and I can always guess what people are going to say. When I sing a song I have never heard before-and I like- then the word pops in my mouth and I sing it right along with the song-that I had never heard before. *sigh* I don't know if writing all of this here was the right thing, but I hope it was.:) thanks for reading;)