I'm 15 and I'm psychic. I have been my whole life and for some reason I have always known how to use energy ever since I was little. About roughly a year ago I tried shape shifting. There are two types I think. There's mentally shape shifting where you smell, hear, see and all that and there's physically changing. I'm going to be talking a bit about both. The first time I tried this was as I said about a year ago and it was because of an annoying party happening down the street and I was trying to sleep. I was so frustrated and I thought I would try to scare them a little. I never tried this before but for some reason I just felt like I knew how to do it. By the way that kind of already knew how to do it stuff has been happening since I was little. Anyway I know this may be very hard to believe for some but but think of it this way, everything we see and feel is energy we are energy and so anything can be achieved, even flying. That night I fist tried turning into a gecko but not physically it was like I was looking through its eyes feeling what it feels and smelling what it smells. I thought it would be a good sort of inconspicuous thing to take a look at what was going on at the party and who was where. After that I did the same but in the form of a bat, I thought I would give the girls at the party a scare, but with the gecko I wasn't even sure I was actually doing this, and this is what kind of made me believe I was. I went to scare the girls in bat form and up the road I suddenly heard screaming and yelling and then I stopped being the bat and all the screaming stopped with it. That was what made me believe I could actually be doing this. Anyway this is the part I need help with.
Recently I have been trying physically to turn into something and the strange part is my body would start convulsing and shaking and I would cry because it hurt, I would start to feel so uncomfortable in my own skin like I was trying to get out, similar to what actually happens in movies. I have had a lot of weird stuff happen in my life but this is the strangest. I don't know what to do it used to take a lot of concentration for me to feel the convulsing like I'm having a fit but know it comes when I think of it only a little. If anyone knows anything about what's happening or might happen to me please tell me. Thank you for reading my crazy story, I understand if it's hard to believe. Thanks again.