I'm 13 years old and can feel others emotions. I've been able to do this for as long as I can remember and have known I was psychic since I was very young because my dad's a telepath (I'm also at least 6th generation psychic). When I was younger my ability would come and go and was easier to keep under control, but a few years ago it started getting significantly harder for me. When I was about 10 it got really bad, but not with my empathic abilities. It started with precognitive feelings that I would get. They where super painful and left me with a huge headache afterward. My dad also had some problems with this a year later and actually had to go to the hospital after blacking out because of it. The feelings lasted about a half a year and just disappeared after that, but since then my empathic abilities have never gone away. When I step into a room now, I can feel every person's emotions like a nag in the back of my mind. This year my abilities have grown significantly to the point where I can sometimes manipulate others emotions.
Now on to stuff that happened this year. I really don't want to block my abilities. I tried to this year and had a really bad experience. When I blocked others emotions, it kind of got stuck that way for a while, and during that time I became emotionally ill. At first it was just a dull pain, but soon it became almost unbearable and I fell into a really bad depression. Everything became hard and the more time I blocked my abilities, the worse it became. I finally meditated and unblocked myself, and it was like being set free. I relaxed and after every day my depression decreased significantly to where it finally disappeared. I never shared this with my family and only one of my friends even knows about what I can do. This scared me, so I never want to block this again. If anybody can explain why this happened, will you please help me?
My dad has never had a problem with talking about what we can do because he knows what it was like to go through childhood without understanding himself (my grandma hates her abilities and rarely speaks of them). I have stopped talking openly with him about it because we have very different views. He believes that we should block our abilities and stay away from others like us, but I believe in working on my abilities and in getting help from others who know what I'm going through. It's come to a point where I just don't speak with him about it anymore. My mom agrees with me and is always trying to get my dad and I to meet with people who share our experiences because one of her close friends recently realized her own abilities, but I just don't feel comfortable with asking her to connect me up with someone.
I want help with this and feel like I can't turn to anyone. I've been checking out this site for a long time and finally decided it was time for me to share my experience. Will someone please help me and explain some of the things that could come in the future for me? I need help!