I have been dating a man for around 2 years now. He is unusually understanding and forgiving. I have never seen him get mad, he feels compassion for everyone even people who hurt him. He is almost angel like.
But that is not my main point.
When I first started dating him I had dreams that he would be laying beside me just watching me, in a way making sure that everything would be alright. I thought it was because I was falling in love and seeing him in my dreams. But it got more serious. There would be nights were I would wake up in a daze, and see him at the bottom of my bed protecting me, and one night I asked him what he was doing, and he said "be quiet and sleep, do not worry I am protecting you." I see his full figure walking around covered in a sort of white mist, but I can't really move or do anything, and obviously it's not his actually body figure it's like his soul comes to protect me. I started feeling like he was on this earth to protect me.
ALSO.
He takes my pain away, and my feelings of discomfort. Yes any pain or discomfort. It really scared me at first but its now become an unspoken truth. Whenever I have a headache he grabs my head and instantly takes the headache pain away. When I feel nauseated he holds me and takes the feeling of throw up away. When I'm cold at night he makes the room hot.
What is weird is that even when I'm not with him I just have to close my eyes and ask him, in a praying like way to do a favor for me, to protect me and make sure that everything comes out fine, and it always happens. He has never failed me in those ways. He has stopped death even. He tells me he will pray and he promises me things will get better, and when he says that I know it will.
These days nothing bad happens to me, I really do feel protected, I know he will never let me down.
He in ways has hinted to be my guardian, but he always changes the subject and tells me just to not worry about it, as if it were a secret. He tells me that I have powers, and that I'm an angel. He tells me that it's his job to make sure I am safe. He has also told me that he is not a good person, and that he is "half" bad? It's all very confusing.
But also when I break up with him and tell him to leave me alone forever, because sometimes I do act selfish and send him away. Everything seems to fall apart, I get pains, I get bad luck. It's like my life turns ordinary when he is not around. Like his powers seem to fade.
Please someone have an explanation for this. The story is really complicated and there are a lot more experiences and feelings that lead me to believe he protects me. This is more general. But I want to understand this, I want to understand him. Why is he protecting me? I wonder if it's because he loves me, or because I have something inside of me, a power or something that needs extra protection. I have heard stories of human guardians, but I'm not really sure what this is.
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