First let me say that I come from a long line of gifted people. For at least five generations back, all of my relatives on my father's side have had some form of it. I myself am mostly an empath, however, I have seen things in the future and the past, predicted earthquakes (I actually physically feel them a day before they happen), heard people's thoughts and regularly have encounters with spirits... Good and bad. There are so many crazy things that I've encountered that you wouldn't believe it. But I have had these experiences for as long as I remember (I'm 41 now), and I'm okay with it.
Lately, however, there is something that is REALLY bothering me. My dreams are SO REAL that I actually feel everything in them. I can say that I know what it feels like to have been shot by a gun, been in a fire, struck by lightning, had a stroke and even what it felt like to be on the airplanes that struck the World Trade Center (which I dreamed three times in the months before it happened). I don't know a whole lot about astral projection (I have had this gift for so long that I just don't pay attention to much), so I'm pretty sure that I've done it. Now, over the last year or so it seems that I am seriously fighting it, and I don't know why. I tend to either see a flash of light, hear a loud clap or hear static before an "episode." And I call it an episode because I really don't know what it is!
My first episode was eight years ago, shortly after I had my son. I went to bed at midnight. Immediately after closing my eyes, I saw a flash of light, and assuming that it was just heat lightning, I went to sleep. Next thing I knew, every hair on my body stood on end and I felt like my body had an electrical current running through it. Petrified, I rolled out of bed and crawled to the living room, praying to St. Theresa (I have no idea why) to protect me and my son, as we were home alone that night. Once I got to the living room, the current got stronger and I was struck by lightning. I felt searing pain as the electricity ran through my body. Suddenly, I heard a loud snap and I awoke - in my bed. I looked at the clock and it was 5am. Okay, no problem, another psychic thing for me and nothing to be concerned about.
When I hear the noise signaling that I am going to have an episode, I snap awake because I don't want it to happen. Why, I don't know, as I've always just let it happen. But inevitably, it will happen, and it seems like I am much more aware of it. My body feels like it's shaking violently as I force myself awake/back into my body. I've never seen my physical body while being outside of it, that's why I'm not really sure if I am projecting or not. Now, it seems that this will happen when I am lying on my back, which is why I go to sleep on my stomach as much as possible. Last year, I was on my stomach when along came an episode, and as I was fighting it, it felt like something grabbed my ankle and dragged me down my bed, but not totally out of it. I'm not sure if it really happened or not. That was the first time that I have been scared from an experience since I was a teenager!
Now the other night, I had a strong feeling I was going to have an episode, so I flipped over on my stomach. A few seconds after I closed my eyes, I heard a loud crackling static, so I opened my eyes and tried to stay awake, but couldn't. As soon as I closed my eyes, I was in a dream. In the dream, I went to a restaurant near my house to see a guy who I am interested in IRL. I ran into some female friends (whom I DON'T know IRL), and they invited me into the club part to join them for a party. It was all women, and I soon realized that they were all witches - but more like fairy-tale witches as opposed to a coven of witches. Suddenly, one of my "friends" made me dance with her, and I felt sexually attracted to her, even though I am straight. Then she kissed me, and I kissed her back, upon which time several other witches started running their hands all over my body. At this point I began forcing myself to awake from the dream or whatever it was, and it was a violent struggle. As I was what I assume to be in between two worlds, I could now feel myself lying in bed on my stomach, and I was trying to force my eyes open, and I could see around my room... But I still felt several sets of hands all over my body - my face, stomach, back and legs. I finally woke up, and when I looked at the clock, it was again 5am like my first episode.
Ever since the dragging episode, I have been afraid, and this one scared me, too. I'm almost afraid to go to sleep now. Can anyone help me understand what is happening?