Whether you know it as chi, simply energy, or any other name there is a force connecting all things. I've been trying to develop my ability to feel and move this force for approximately 4 years. I've had the knowledge that there has always been potential under my surface if I could just access it.
To give proper introduction before my story, I've always had intense deja vu, great sense of others emotions (knowing how they feel before sharing or displaying obvious signs like a frown or sigh), the ability to better communicate what I 'feel' they are saying (with little to know effort, and very few words), and lately I've been experiencing aerokinesis that I've realized I've had since about 8 or 9.
So now to my story. I was in my bathroom standing in front of my sink, gathering energy between my palms. This is something I like to do regularly and try to do everyday as its gotten so much stronger over time. Suddenly I got the inclination to imagine a bright spot of light where my forehead was (my eyes were closed whilst in front of the mirror). I could then feel and see the dot become purple as I attempted to merge the bright dot with what was between my palms.
So here's the trippy part. I've gathered energy before but this was different. The second my eyes opened and made eye contact with myself my head began to pulse, throb, buzz, and "ebb" as if it were suddenly a field of energy stronger than I've ever been aware of feeling attempting to break free of my skull. It wasn't moving or flowing so I tried to just feel it. I walked to a chair about 6-7 feet away in my room. As I sat down (energy still throbbing, not painful but feeling like I was expanding rapidly) I thought maybe I was successful in the beginning stages of astral travel as that's what I was trying to do before gathering energy in the bathroom.
After trying be aware of possible astral travel the feeling started to fade down to a tingling warmth. Since through lots of reflection, meditation, and sheer desire I have been "feeling" everything around me so much more. Not physically but with extensions of myself. I feel I am literally opening up the energy/ies that make up every single thing. If anyone can tell me what they think may have happened to me in front of my mirror (if it even was the mirror) I would greatly appreciate all theories and possibilities. I'm a person that thinks of one action and as many different outcomes as possible.
Lastly, if you're reading this far thank you SO much! I'm not supposed to make a post asking for help in the title so I'm doing it now. I'm not exaggerating, or looking to feed my ego. That said, here goes...
I KNOW I have power/s I can't control. I KNOW that this whole universe is simply an extension of itself manifesting differently. I FEEL something coming that I'm telling myself to prepare for that will affect much more than me. Upon other things I desperately feel the need to find, align, and surround myself with people are not blind to the world around them and can help me (and in turn help them as well as others) to wake up to our true collective potential.
Thank you for your time. I hope that all who read this passage may feel my sincerity and genuine love for all.
Blessed Be All