Hello everyone, I am currently 14 years old and living with one of my parents. Even though I am sort of young I have experienced a wide range of paranormal experiences, but for now I am going to focus on Sleep Paralysis because of what happened to me last night. As a child growing up I was always drawn to things paranormal. Mostly I would see ghost all the time (I still do), I used to receive information from an unknown source, I would use complicated words at ages of 3-5, some of which my family had no clue what I was saying. I never had problems in school, I taught myself to read, write, and do long math problems for my age. The only thing that was missing in my life was a complete family. My parents divorced when I was 1 years old, it wasn't as bad for me though because I coped through it with all the praise I received from my abilities.
My entire family is open spiritually and I used to hear talk of ghost and spirits, of course out of fear I denied it all. But I could never deny at the age of 7 I started having Sleep Paralysis and pre-obe symptoms. Some nights I felt like I was falling off my bed while asleep but only to awake in the middle of the bed. I surely enough just shrugged it off, because it happened so often I got used to it, and I didn't feel as if it was worth mentioning to anyone.
But soon that later developed into me feeling as if I was being dragged downwards. I knew that I wasn't being touched physically, I felt as if my soul was being dragged from my body, and the only thing that connected us was a long cord. So I would fight for minutes, pulling back and with enough concentration I could do it easily. Sometimes I would get this at least 2-3 times a night. Again I took lightly to this because sometime later I gained control over it and could bring my soul back anytime I wanted, knowing this sometimes I let it go just to see what would happen only to bring it back out of fear.
But one night it stopped completely, I had a weird dream, I dreamed that I was inside of a video game, and I was running from something. Not knowing what it was I turned around and saw nothing. And then I turned into a yellow car (kind of a cartoon car), I tried to move but I couldn't. I saw myself as the car struggling to move, but then I said in my head, wait a minute I'm awake. I asked my self "Have I been watching this dream the entire time?". Still looking at myself the car struggling to move I tried to get up but I couldn't move. I was stuck in my sleeping position, and a voice said "Fight it if you must..." So I began struggling and I concentrated on the feeling of walking, and I broke free. I opened my eyes and closed them again, and it was back, I fought it off again and was able to move but the same thing happened again! But after this I was finally able to sleep properly. And even after this I still thought lightly of it because again I was able to get free. I wasn't ever really afraid of it, it seemed minor to all of the weird things I've seen and heard, but that's a story for a another time. I had this feeling on and off and soon it became easy to shake off.
Later in my life when I was about the ages of 12-13, again my Sleep Paralysis went to a new level. I would get it at night out of the blue and it became harder to brake free. But eventually I adjusted once again and whenever I got it I would take 1 deep breath, and move my big toe and I'd be free. Again I would get it 2 to 3 times a night.
One day at my mother's newest apartment I was sitting on the floor with my legs stretched outwards, and she was sitting on the bed above me, while her dog was acting out. I nodded off and all I heard was the t.v and her talking on the phone. I soon felt a strong spiritual pressure on my entire body, and I knew I was experiencing Sleep Paralysis again. But this time was different, it was the middle of the day, and I wasn't laying down or trying to go to sleep. I had recently read when you say the words "I am not afraid" while in a Sleep Paralysis state something amazing will happen.
Me being curious and not overly cautious as usual I took a deep breath, and instead of moving my big toe I said the words. And then everything fell silent in my head, though all the background noise was still present. What materialized in front of me (inside of my head) was a large door. I was drawn to it, I wanted to open it but I also recently had a series of dreams, when someone I knew would come to me and ask me to open the door for them, but each time I would be unable to do so because of something stopping me. Once I was to tired to answer it for my step-sister. And the other I was to afraid to open my attic door, for what looked like a darker version of myself. I have never been in my attic, but it is connected to my room, and is the source of most my paranormal happenings, along with the basement (my house is haunted). Out of pure fear I, moved my toe and awoke from my Sleep Paralysis state. Since then even if I close my eyes slightly I can still see that door, it has never went away.
Through all this my Sleep Paralysis is continuing to develop into an obe. Last night I was laying in my bed tired, I curled up on my side and began drifting off to sleep. I then felt myself going into another Sleep Paralysis state, I began fighting it off but for some reason I was unable to concentrate. There was a loud noise in my ear, and it sounded like sitting in a car with all the windows open, and the hard when is beating at your ear drums. Eventually I was able to move my toe, and broke out of it. I stayed in a similar position, and it came back almost immediately, this time I was completely unable to concentrate or move.
So I began to struggle, I knew this wouldn't work because I have tried to move in a Sleep Paralysis state before, and the only thing I've been able to move was my astral body. So as I tried to move, I moved my entire arm even though it took a lot of energy, and it was because I used up so much energy that my eyes shot open allowing me to move. Trying to get to sleep as soon as possible I laid on my back. I drifted off immediately, and again my Sleep Paralysis came back, but this time it happened while my eyes were open. I closed my eyes, and then thinking to myself "Wait... What about those stories I've read when people see a shadow attacking them?" I opened my eyes, and saw nothing but then as a result, the loud noise began to get louder, and the vibrations which were usually almost un-noticeable in most of my Sleep Paralysis states had began to feel as if my body was erupting. I didn't try to fight it but I knew what was going to happen if I didn't stop it, I was about to have an out of body experience. I was scared of this because I read that if you leave your body open, you can easily be possessed by a demon of such, I didn't know if it was true or not but I didn't want to really try my luck.
The vibrations began increasing as time went on, the noise was louder, which hindered my concentration ability, then the vibrations and the noise stopped. I felt my astral body moving on its own, moving itself into a laying flat on my back position. And then I began floating, I was unable to concentrate and notice what was going on. I was about to open my eyes when it hit me, visualization! I visualized myself falling to the ground and then I went straight back into my body. Then I got up breathing hard and completely out of energy whatsoever. Exhausted I turned around and laid back down, and fell asleep with no problems.
Now the question I want to ask is: Why does my Sleep Paralysis keep developing without me noticing? And is it safe to Astral Project? I know this surely is A LOT to read, but I thank you in advance just for taking time out to read it.