I play with a few stray dogs in the park, mainly because I feel better around dogs then humans, and I understand their basic moods better. I can't keep a dog at home because of my dad's allergy to them, so I play with them. Last night I thought about them being hurt, or hurting me. Today I went to play with them, though only 2 of them, they seemed lethargic and irritated, and had the same kind of wound on their thigh. I was guessing it was something done for medical purposes because it was clean, neat and well taken care of and on exactly the same spot I was sitting in mud, when suddenly my own thigh started to hurt, for no reason. I now have a soft bruise on it.
On my way home, feeling confused, I began thinking of getting a bottle of coke, but for some reason stopped myself. I went home and my mother was ordering pizza and coke as a treat for passing my exams.
We began discussing when we would go and buy art thing I needed. (I enjoy painting, so we had decided to go out and buy art stuff) I thought in my mind "Tomorrow would be good..." My mom and dad discussed it, and figured out that the only day my dad's free to take me, is tomorrow.
I keep predicting small things, like when my friends and I will meet, or the percentage my friend and I got in math. I would be wrong sometimes but when my thoughts were spontaneous, I am always dead on. For example, there's a site called "omegle.com" where you talk to strangers without having to sign up or make a profile. Just random conversations with random people who don't have to know anything about you. You can disconnect any conversation whenever you like and switch strangers too. It's like randomly calling up people and chatting with them on the phone! It's pretty safe and though some people use it as a slightly "explicit" site, and type mean thing, mostly it's a site for bored people. I simply went on out of boredom.
When I was speaking to people, I always found certain things about them without them telling me, like -
"This boys having girlfriend trouble", and sure enough it would come up in conversation. Or things like "This guys a creep" sure enough my fears would come true.
It became surprising when I asked one of the strangers a question "what do you want to be when you grow up?"
The answer I thought of was "I want to kill myself." As we continued to talk, I found out whoever was suffering from depression. We had that in common since 3 years ago I was suffering from it too. So we continued to talk. It's becoming much more potent.
Things like this won't stop happening. I can't do anything to harness this skill, since I'm 16, get 400rs (about 10 dollars) for pocket money and can't buy crystals, take classes or anything. If I asked my parents they'd sooner send me to a mental clinic. I thought it would be ok just leaving it this way, but its growing, and I don't know what to do. If I have an ability, I want to be able to control it. I thought I would find a mentor, but in India apparently there aren't many people I can turn to. Any advice?
I also used to be clairvoyant, in the sense I would see things in my head, like where a lost item was, or what my friend was going through. That ability has disappeared, and even though I meditate, I can't "find" it. I feel slightly blind! Any help on this too.