I recently did a meditation not too long ago to meet my spirit guide. It was my first time, so it felt kind of silly, but I was curious. This might be lame for the pros but it was an amazing first time and so I'd like to share it with you:
I am doing the meditation, getting a sense of my surroundings. I'm walking up flights of stairs. Before I get to the top, an amazing thing happened; I saw bright lights that sort of fluttered across my closed eyes. I wanted to open my eyes to what it was but felt that I shouldn't. So my eyes remained closed. Mind you, I had the curtains drawn in the entire time (so the lights won't bother me) so there shouldn't have been anything to cross my view. Right before I saw the flutter of lights behind closed eyes, that is when I reach the top of the stairs. I see a small bright white house. Next to this house I see a bright blurry figure I couldn't quite make out. Somehow a picture of a woman wearing white with blonde curly hair came to vision. My mind was totally blank. I was not thinking of anything whatsoever, except the vision, and that is when she said through me "love yourself." It was that simple.
I little about myself: Before my thoughts were even on the meditation, I've been criticizing myself lately. I had problems about the way I looked such as weight issues even though others say I look great. I had a very bad self-image about myself! I was very upset about the way I looked. I'd compare myself to my friend and others. I was just very negative overall.
And now to actually hear my spirit guide say "love yourself" surprised me because it registered to me of how negative I've been recently! It had an overwhelming feeling to why I failed to see this in the first place! I felt like crying, because it gave me the most wonderful feeling I've ever felt. I need to love myself and I will love myself! I am very thankful to my spirit guide for what she has done to help to keep me in track and see the positive side in me once more!
As for yourself, Do you know where beauty comes from? It comes from within. The outer shell of us all changes and does not stay the same forever. Even those with nice outer shells will age and develop wrinkles, weight gain and grey hair. Yet the inner beauty always stays the same.
Continue to listen to your spirit guide. She sees your inner beauty. And, stop comparing yourself to others. They may not even be up to your par. Learn to love yourself. Once you learn how to do that you will be in a much better place.