So recently, I reconnected with a friend from the past. This particular friend and I had an off and on relationship in college. When I met him I felt like I had known him forever. The first day we met, we ended up talking until 5 AM. Despite feeling like we belonged together, we both moved on. We had a long distance relationship, and he could not handle it despite our extremely deep connection.
Years went by. I married. He married. I thought about him at least once a month, but not seriously. I missed him in the back of my mind, and I regretted the way things had ended. We just walked away from each other. We never had any formal "break up," because we never formally dated even though we were extremely close friends and had crossed the line to more than friends a few times.
In July of this year, I started thinking about him a lot. I just couldn't get him off of my mind. He opened a Facebook account around that time, and I waited until October sensing that friending him may not be good for me. Around this time, I started hearing him, in my head. I felt like he was talking to me.
His friend posted a photo of him on FB from when he was a child, before I even knew him, and I felt so emotionally attached to that photo that it made me cry. Now, at this point I feel like we are speaking to each other through our minds at least once a day.
I had an emotional breakdown when all of this started happening, and I felt like I was grieving the loss of him nearly ten years after we left each other. We have always held onto each other, and I know for a fact he had a hard time letting go of me, because he called me a year after I married to tell me as much. My therapist told me I needed to "break" the connection to him. He says that some people are so deeply connected they become emotionally intertwined, and we are literally sucking the energy out of each other because we haven't resolved our feelings regarding our parting.
After that discussion, I unfriended him on Facebook. I mentally pictured me cutting our tie. We are tied with a yellow cord, and I have mentally tried to cut our attachment several times, and I never have success. In fact, the last time I succeeded in not having his thoughts enter my head for nearly two weeks. I told my friend that I felt like I was finally able to move on from him, and he emailed me the next day, reattaching us to one another.
Right now, I'm so conflicted. I did not email him when I unfriended him, but I have "spoken" to him through my thoughts about it. I can't seem to get his thoughts out of my head, and I'm wondering if I'm just going crazy or if this is literally us picking up each other's thoughts and trying to resolve our issues so we can move on. Or is this soulmate telepathy?
He and I are not communicating right now, so unfortunately I can't email him or call him and ask him if he's experiencing the same thing. Plus, he is married (I'm guessing happily), so I'm guessing it would not go over with the wife. Also, I feel like we are both using blocking techniques against each other right now, me more so than him, to block the negative thoughts/feelings from flowing over.
The funny thing is, before I cut him out of my life he and I were having pleasant thought transmissions. Since I unfriended him on Facebook, he has been unhappy and will not "listen" to my reasons behind the unfriending. I feel like his thought pattern is going in a circle back to blame. If this really is telepathy, how do I move on from it and get us back into a better cycle or cut him off completely so I can go about my day without thoughts invading my mind. I do not know much about psychics, only the little I've read on this site and also from searching on telepathy since this started happening to me in July.