I'm 15, and I've always had extremely firm beliefs in the paranormal and supernatural. I have always been, acted and felt different to others and feel like others my age act too young and immature (I get along well with people with older souls). I look beyond the box, outside of what other people believe and see. I'm always daydreaming and visualizing and I have always been creative and imaginative. People have said ever since I was young that I am multi-talented and intelligent. I have been told I am very wise and insightful, and that I have large, clear blue eyes that look deep into the soul.
I have always felt determined in my beliefs and ambitions. I have a message I just HAVE to get across to the world no matter what. There are so many beautiful things we don't know about yet, and I have to show the world these things and what I can do. I am very inventive and original, and I hate society and conforming to authority figures like teachers. I am one of the people who is going to evolve our species, and I won't let anyone get in my way.
I am not very sociable and I feel like nobody has ever truly understood me or the way I think. I have never met anyone I connect with on a spiritual level, except my father who is a psychic. I don't always like being around people who I can't connect with, so I really want to meet another psychic. In crowds I feel overwhelmed and I can sometimes tell what is happening in somebody's life or how they are feeling by looking at them. I can feel what they feel, so I get headaches very often, and I attribute my depression to other people's emotions overwhelming me.
I always have to know "why" and need answers for everything. I can't stand being kept in the dark or patronized, and I can usually tell if someone is a liar or truth of heart. I always look into peoples' eyes, deep into their souls.
I can walk through places and be overwhelmed with emotions. For example, in graveyards I can become so depressed and sad for no reason, but just feel despair and want to cry.
I dream about demons and ghosts almost everynight, and I believe it is a sign. I see significance in a lot of things. For example times 11:11 or the way things are placed. Another that I have seen was a shadow of Jesus on the wall outside my house. He was reaching up as if to God, and I could clearly see it was him. I believe this was a sign that things were about to get better, and they did the next day.
I connect deeply with animals and wildlife. I feel healed and at peace with the universe when I am around nature. I understand many things about the universe and reality that others don't. I have always been extremely sensitive. As a child and now small things would always overwhelm and upset me. I hate conflict but I'm not afraid to fight for what I believe. In conflicts I feel sensitive because I can feel all of the emotions as well as my own, and I find it difficult sometimes to differentiate between the two.
I see spirits, auras, colours, shadows, lights, demons, visions and shapes everywhere I go. I hear voices, and have done for most of my life. Some are friendly or talk to each other and others I feel have bad intentions. For example, the other day I heard one of them say "Pray your God" in an angry gruff voice. I have been told to kill myself and hurt others, and this terrifies me.
I have visions of the future and places. Since I was very young (about 6/7), I have had dreams about a world parallel to our own in another universe/dimension. I always knew when I was there because it was peaceful and quiet and I loved it. I still get these sometimes. There are so many colours there that we don't know about yet and it's so beautiful. It's hard to describe. My soul was born in the 9th universe/dimension, and I believe these visions are of my world.
I can see auras. There are layers of colour surrounding people and I get a 'feeling' that someone is good, bad, ill, lying or that something bad is going to happen. Sometimes I have visions of natural disasters happening and sometimes they come true. Or I have visions of some tv show/film that I haven't seen in years in my mind and it's on later that day. At night I can feel like I am falling and wake up suddenly or feel like I am not a part of this world. I have deja vu every day, and I get the feeling of someone watching me all the time. I also get the shivers (the saying, 'someone walked over my grave') a lot more than most people.
All of my life I have been fascinated with rocks, crystals and magic. And also shiny things. I would often collect them as they would help me feel calm and peaceful. I still do, actually.
I get really bad headaches almost everyday. The doctor said I don't need glasses so I thought these chronic pains were linked to the depression, but now I believe it's because I am empathic and I can feel negative energy. I want to be able to control all of this somehow. I also have visions of events that sometimes come true.
I feel connected with nature and the universe. I have a huge passion for space and the paranormal. This Indigo/Crystal Child phenomena sounds a lot like me. Could it be I am one?
Thanks for reading.