I have had experiences stretching back to when I was a little girl that I could now say were the starting of abilities. I am extremely empathic. I 've had to learn the hard way that what I'm carrying in emotion isn't always mine in the 1st place. I've went from a person who mingled with a lot of others to a person who chooses a small group of friends that I see at different times. I feel drained of energy quite often. I'm only beginning to feel comfortable enough & confident enough to say I know I'm a lot more empathic than most around me. I see this as a blessing but when you have your own personal problems I want to just shut everyone else's out. Now a lot of things make more sense. I sometimes feel that by nature I would give everything I am until there's nothing left to give. I've also learnt & it pains me to say this, some people (even people that you love) will take until there's nothing left. After they leave I feel I need to re-energize in time for their next visit as ridiculous as it sounds. I have found a lot of good answers for this & techniques to try. I continue to research this
Overall most of my messages/visions/warnings? Tend to come when I'm asleep. I never knew or thought it was "special" & still don't know if everyone has it to the degree I do & just don't talk about it. Examples being, I dreamt of my 1st serious partner who I had 2 sons with before we met. Then a month later I met the guy in the same place as I dreamt & the same setting. Only difference was his hair was shorter (I know that's a minor detail but strange to me all the same) So when it happened I shrugged it off. I've had premonition like dreams about natural disasters that have later been confirmed, again always very similar to what I dream apart from in those dreams I am experiencing the disaster for myself not viewing it from a distance (again I don't know if that matters). After I had my second son I had a dream that I was in the maternity hospital &had given birth & was in a room surrounded by people I didn't know but seemed to know me, with a man that was not my partner &the baby wasn't my new born son. When I woke the dream made me really upset. So much so I did something I never do. I shared it with my partner. I put it down to stress of having 2young children to now care for & it was just a dream. To cut a long story short, I split from my children's dad & eventually found someone else. He always seemed so familiar to me but I never knew why. It wasn't until I was in hospital having our daughter that it hit me hard, I was surrounded by his family in the same room I'd dreamt of with my new baby & my new partner, only difference was they weren't strangers anymore. That dream took 3years to make sense.
Lately I have been seeing things in my peripheral vision more than ever. I can sense a presence & don't know how to go about dealing with this. I also have started seeing quick flashes of faces in front of me when I'm relaxed but not asleep. It's hard to explain as its unlike anything else I could compare it to. The images are in rapid succession. A few incidents have now happened just after I hop into bed. 1st time I felt a gentle squeeze to my arm, I opened my eyes expecting to see my 4yr old but there was nobody there. I didn't feel threatened so settled well that night. The 2nd was a bit more unsettling as I had my cover yanked off my shoulder, again just a few minutes after getting into bed & laying down. I didn't want to open my eyes that time & didn't feel too good.
I would like some feedback to find out if everyone has these things happen & if so how they cope as I have some horrific dreams that I couldn't begin to try & share for fear of being labeled nuts! I have tried to keep a dream journal to make sense of things or to just get it onto paper instead of weighing on me. I have so many questions.I'm 28 & kind of thought people with gifts have them all their lives not off & on or spontaneously? The long standing things been my dreams but that doesn't mean they make sense:/ as for the other experiences anybody's opinions would be valued greatly no matter what it is. I hope what I've written has made a bit of sense. I have nobody I can really open up to that understands. When I try they get creeped out. HELP!