I already have published a story of some of my experiences & had identified quite a while back that I was an Empath. My main reasoning for joining the site was to find like minded people who wouldn't find me crazy & would be able to not only identify but give me pointers in the right direction. I would truly like to take this opportunity to thank you all for the helpful feedback on my own experiences & also on what i've picked up elsewhere on the site regarding everyone else's. I have been able to incorporate these words of wisdom into guidelines I can live my life by in reguards to being empathic. I find myself now at a total loss again as I'm now experiencing things new to me that I don't feel equipped for so again I am appealing for guidance.
I touched on the fact that I'm an empath & also have premonitions in my sleep in my 1st story. I was finally feeling more comfortable with my "gifts" & 100% more positive. I now find spirit has a new challenge for me as I'm starting to have interactions with different spirit every night. Gone is the spontaneous visions that would be few & far between.I'm now encountering faces of people I've never met (this I have experienced before but not to this intensity) on what I explain as a role of film. The faces change & with them I get symbols & keywords, sometimes names. Each face comes with different emotions & sometimes I'm not bothered too much apart from it being well very new. Other times I feel a more negative presence & I can feel their frustration with me. I can only assume they are frustrated that I am not able to piece together what they're laying out. And even if I could what am I to do with the information? Over the past few nights the intensity has drove me into a state of panic so much so that I've had to do my own personal prayer of protection in a desperate attempt for them to leave me be. Theres times setting the boundary of, "sorry guys I'm trying to rest. Now's not a good time." is enough & is respected but recently this hasn't been the case. I am intrigued at how they project themselves at times however it doesn't matter how much I try to prepare myself for the scarier more negative ones I still get caught so off guard it leaves me petrified.
On a personal level I ask myself why is this happening now? Although I fear I know the answer. I'm 28 now but as a teen I was very in touch spiritually. I got ill 4 a longtime & to cut a long story short took medication that made me really numb to everything. Since being well again this is all being reawakened inside me. The Empathy I struggled with but the new stuff is a bigger challenge. What does this mean? Is this part & parcel of being an Empath or is this on a whole other level? Any answers would really help. I have a 5year old daughter who is my whole world, my experiences are leaving me with very little rest & I'd be lying if I said it wasn't affecting who I am day to day.
Thank you for taking the time to read
sending love & light always