So, at this point, I'm not sure if I am psychic. However, I do have strange things happen to me on occasion. In example, we had a card reading game at my college's Fall fest. I couldn't read my Zener cards, but I would get the person's beside me right. I would wish it would rain or downpour and it does or I'm thinking of a song and it starts playing. Not only that, I have very subtle abilities that are being blocked. My problem is that the one blocking them is me.
I have a friend who is an energy manipulator and I hang around with a few Pagans. Each and every one of them tells me about this black void hanging around me. My friend tells me that there is this inch or two thick wall surrounding me that keeps me separated from everything. After much discussion, we decided it might have occurred a long time ago due to a traumatic incident. This shield is about 15 plus years old and it hasn't faltered a day.
I read through some articles and was surprised when I learned that shields degrade overtime. From my understanding (and with a little help from my friend), this thing is so strong that it continuously repairs any damage it takes (the shield). My Pagan friends and I have said I may have abilities. The problem is the shield is actually keeping me from tapping into any of my natural abilities. And everything I look into from paper backs to Internet sources tell me how to create, but not how to dismantle. I need to know how to tear it down. It's becoming a problem more than a help. Is there anything I can do?