So my entire life, I've always been able to see spirits. My parents realized what was happening when I was 3 and playing with my dead older brother. (And by playing I mean I would push a car to him and he would push it back.) He stayed with me until I was about 11. He went everywhere with me, and taught me how to use my powers. How to shield myself so that spirits I would see would stop touching me, and so that spirits with bad energy couldn't come to me. He taught me how to make spirits leave if they got out of control. He taught me common courtesy for spirits. He taught me how to control the fact that I drain people when I get upset. Now I can control when I take, or give energy. He taught me how to recognize energy when I saw it. He taught me how to stop my energy from calling out to every spirit in the state. And he taught me how to tell the difference between my own emotions, and the emotions of others around me, which I felt as my own. He taught me everything I know. And then he said I was too dependent on him, and that I had to learn to be strong on my own. That was 4 years ago. I called for him. Constantly. Nothing, he wouldn't come to me.
For the last 2 months, there has been someone playing games with me. It ran in the corner of my vision. Would show a flash in a mirror, but wouldn't let me see it. Today it was doing it really bad, always in the corner of my eye. All I saw was a flash and him touching my face and all my shields were gone. Disappeared. And they came flooding in. Hundreds of spirits, sitting in front of me wanting my help. Screaming at me. Touching me. Once they touched me it was like I went into some kind of battle mode. My energy was just pouring out and forcing them back. Finally they left. I knew it was my brother who touched my face. I would never forget his feeling. Then he comes back saying that I still have much to learn, and I have a new gift developing and disappears again. And I can't get my shields back up. Whats happening to me? I feel like I've gone insane. I mean what other gift could it be? I see ghost, control energies, and can tune into peoples feelings, even change their feelings. I don't know what to do.