When I was 17 (I am now 31) I visited a spiritualist church where a medium picked me out during the service and informed me I had the gift and I was scared of it and it would come to me when I learned to not fear it. Needless to say this scarred me and I never went back to nay spiritualist church.
I had as a child witnessed many things but I put this down to a child's imagination and convinced myself I was being paranoid until I was 21. I was on holiday in Florida with my mother and sisters, when we decided to take a early night. I was woken from my sleep by a door banging shut I glanced at the clock saw it was 2 am and remember thinking oh mum changed her mind and went out for a drink so I rolled over to go back to sleep. I then felt someone poking me in the side again I thought it's my mum wanting some cigarettes. I opened my eyes and at end of my bed was a man, quite solid looking though fuzzy round edges and he was wearing a black and white striped shirt. I am not sure if he was either pointing at me or doing the shh motion, I just remember being petrified starring and after what felt like ages but most likely a few second si screamed and he vanished. I woke everyone in the hotel room with my scream no one had heard or seen a thing and they had all been fast asleep. The door to the room was locked from inside. The hotel was modern and newly built and there had been no deaths as we checked it all out. Anyway my family thought I was dreaming I knew I was not. But I put this down to 1 ghost encounter that I now as adult knew was real.
But a few weeks later I was staying at a friend's home and had just got into bed when a feeling of paralysis came over me. I could not move any part f my body except my eyes, I could not talk or anything and I felt very panicky. Then a bright light appeared, very bright and white light, and a woman appeared with long blonde hair, and dressed in white she had a little girl with her also blonde also in white the woman smiled and stood looking at me where the little girl began to walk towards me. I managed to break my paralysis and they vanished.
Many other occasions I felt the paralysis beginning to come over me, and I break it before it takes hold of me as I fear whatever is going on and I know I have to stop the fear and learn how to control and find out what is going on.
I often hear my name being called inside my own head though, and sometimes quite loud, I regularly feel presences and mostly can ask them to go away and they do. I I often have random images of people come into my head and like they are trying to tell me something but they always too hazy for me to focus I don't know if that means anything?
2 Nights ago I was woken from my sleep by a creepy feeling and I got out bed closed my door as I felt someone was looking into my room. This was the first time I felt a presence about me was evil and it has scared em as I lay back in bed and first thought I was dreaming, I could hear a man talking to me, and laughing at me about him being dead and I couldn't stop him! It felt as though he was touching me or trying to and I got the strong impression he wanted to touch me in a forceful way, without going into too much detail. I then felt the feeling of paralysis begin to overcome me and when I broke it everything stopped. Now always in past the paralysis began first and I knew this meant something was coming, this time it came after, maybe it saved me I'm not sure but the bad thing certainly happened before the paralysis begun.
Has anyone ever felt any of these things? Either I am going crazy and need to see a shrink or I need to accept I do have a gift and learn how to develop and control it and I am more sure its the 2nd option that I have a gift as I know however crazy it sounds these things have occurred.
Can anyone teach me any techniques to block out spirits, and how to deal with this whole situation, then I guess I have to overcome the fear and find out why they are contacting me and what they want and what do I do now?