Hi everyone. A horrifying side in a person's life could lead to so much damage through the years, but what if it was possible to be able to capture it and know how to change where your going through that path of misery? This is how I would like to start my story.
Since I was a child, 5 years of age, I used to pass out a lot, for no real reason, and I would wake up again after few seconds. During it I would see myself in a room, dark, cold, with closets, I would sit there and cry until I am able to wake up again in the real world. I called this world in my head "my illusion". Being a quiet kid with an unhappy childhood did not allow me to tell anyone about it.
I grew up and it was still happening, even harder than before, I would see ghosts in the room, shadows, and I could hear noises right behind that door which I was not able to open, just waiting for myself in the real world to wake up so I could get out of that scary place in my head. As I turned 19, and still getting sent to that room in my head, I finally had the courage to open the door of that room, hoping to find help behind it, but instead I found what's worse.
The world which I call "my illusion" turned to be a building after I opened the door, a very dark building, which is also very old, with other rooms beside each other, more of a hallway. A frightening thing for a kid, but growing up made me want to know what it is all about. All I found there was Ghosts trying to harm me, physically and mentally, and bruises would show on me if I was hurt physically.
I met the love of my life when I was 19, and what we experienced together through the times I passed out in and got sent to "my illusion" was more of a nightmare to our relationship. I haven't told her about it until the time I passed out and she was right with me. Shaking me trying to wake me up with no use, I was completely sent to darkness, even though I could hear her voice, but I could not wake up, I was living in reality with my body, but completely in darkness, more like being in a coma. As weird things started attacking me in "my illusion", she was starting to see the bruises on me, and she was in fear, but then it happened... I woke up, but I was not me.
She told me I was a different person, I had a weird smile, and a weird tone of voice, that's when she had a feeling that something took over my body, and when she told me that after I woke up for real, I found out that creatures or ghosts from darkness could lock me in "my illusion" and take my form. I was afraid, afraid that they will hurt her, afraid that she will leave me saying I'm a freak. I told her the whole truth which no one knew about, I was shocked to see her standing by my side, and trying to find ways to know what this is all about.
Continued to pass out, fearing that the thing I wake up to be sometimes will hurt my girlfriend made me live in horror, not finding any clue on how to wake myself up unless my head says so was not easy, but I did not give up. One day, as I was in "my illusion", hearing my girlfriend trying to wake me up crying at the same time, I closed my eyes and wished that I could just hear her voice through a phone, and when I opened my eyes I saw the phone right in front of me. A huge fear and shock took over me. After I woke up I told her all about it, which made me find out that in darkness I can imagine anything I want and when I imagine it hard, I can get it. We made a code between us, to know if it is me or not when I wake up, and the code is "you are my sunshine", and the word sunshine is our good luck charm until now.
I am 22 years old now, and we are still together and I still pass out. I went to a professional, and when I told him about it all, he asked me about my childhood, and that is when he caught the problem. The world in my head which is "my illusion" is actually the same horrifying building I used to live in when I was a child, which made my fear turn into a deep reality. Knowing that I can imagine things in darkness and get it, made it easier on me to go through it. My illusion is still a mystery to others, and you all are first to hear it after my girlfriend.