All of my life, I have had these experiences, and people would ask me if I was psychic. I would deny it, but submit, "I am just good at reading people & the rest is coincidence." That is, until 3 things happened. 1.) I was on a run back in college, a run I took daily through the woods. I was a very confident, athletic girl with a martial arts background and running in the woods did not worry me. 1 day, I felt sheer panic. I knew I was about to be murdered. I hyper focused on a bush and hyperventilated. I looked around in panic. I knew someone was stalking me & that they were about to kill me. I ran as fast as I could out of the woods. When I arrived home & quietly walked into the house, my roommates ran up & hugged me. "Thank God you're alive. We thought you were dead. A girl died yesterday on the path you run on." "WHAT? HOW?" "She was stalked & some guy jumped out of the bushes." I realized that I had felt what the murdered girl had felt before she had died. I don't know how, but I did. I think I ran through her energy. 2.) At age 25, I predicted a friend's death. He was 22 at the time and a very responsible, respectable person. I had suddenly felt a horrible feeling in my chest & knew how he would die. There was going to be a terrible bike accident. Tears streamed from my eyes & I blurted out to him what I knew. "YOU'RE GOING TO DIE ON YOUR BIKE," I cried. He was angry with the news I had given him as he was a very safe person. 2 years later, he died exactly how I had predicted. Then he came to me in a dream that night and said he was happy & to not worry about him. He suggested that I go on and live my life. I immediately awoke and felt better. 3.) I have had several ghost experiences, both in dreams & in person. 1 ghost (he) pounded the wall LOUDLY above my head for an hr while I read a book. I even put in ear plugs! Then that night, a random person came over and said, "Is your room haunted?" "What? How did you know that?" "I'm psychic. It's only in your room." At that moment, he and I both heard pounding at the bottom of the stair well. We went down there (only 8 stairs away) and no one was there. Another shadowy figure came to me in a dream and stared at me. I knew that he wanted to kill me. I awoke in panic. And when I was younger, an old lady visited me (I did not see her, I felt her) every night before bed. I thought I was crazy! I hid UNDER my pillow EVERY NIGHT and told my parents I had a grave yard under my bed. When I was an adult, my mom mentioned how my father saw the ghost of an old woman at the end of his bed. She said an old lady had died in the house. I asked, "Did she die in my room?" "Yes." "Mom, she visited me every night before bed." My mom turned white.
When I was younger, I had a lot of deja vu experiences. At least several a day. My brother recently said, "I have these dreams and then they come true. They're quick feelings like I had been there before." "I have those too." I had come to peace with them, but my brother is very bothered by them. I don't have those as often any more.
Truly, my best talent is knowing people's thoughts just by looking at them. For example, 1 day I told a friend, after looking at my roommate, "When we leave, he is going to look for my phone. He will call it when he cannot find it. He will call it when we get to those trees." My friend said, "Uuuum, okay weirdo!" Then he did. My friend was shocked and screamed, "How did you know that?" "I just knew. I saw it on his face." "No, seriously, HOW THE F DID YOU KNOW THAT? ARE YOU PSYCHIC?" "No. I read faces." "You could NOT have known that. I saw what you saw and did not read that off of him."
I know when people are bad or good. I will know really crazy things like if the person is a pedophile. I can't explain how I know it other than it's a feeling in my chest and a weird "knowing" of what it is. But I have to see their face to know this.
And, for fun, I visited a NOLA psychic. I expected nothing. I thought it would be cool to visit a psychic since I was in spooky New Orleans. Upon looking at my hand, the woman looked up at me in shock and with a crooked smile and an intensity in her eyes, she said that she had not seen gifts like mine in years. I had told her absolutely NOTHING about myself - NOTHING. After my reading, she kept me in her office for over an hour. She told me about herself, showed me her voodoo room, and told me that she was supposed to meet me, that our paths were meant to cross. She knew my most personal thoughts, so she must have been the real deal. She said that she was the 2nd highest priestess in NOLA. After returning from NOLA, I told co-workers about this, and they said, "We think you're psychic."
Have I been in denial? Maybe. If I am psychic, why can I not control it? These feelings/experiences will happen randomly. What do I do now? How can I control these experiences? I need guidance from people who understand. I do NOT want to open myself up to negative or evil things. Mostly, I just want to understand myself better and understand why I can do these things when others cannot.