The biggest problem in my life right now is immorality. Not my actions, so much as my thoughts. I try really hard to put everything under locks, and it generally takes about a week to do so, but once I do, any large mental shocks will just snap me right back to where I started. I never really wanted to tell anyone about it, since I felt I really needed to just figure it out on my own. I began to lose hope in this after a while, and became very worried that I was losing my soul. However, after a particularly hard mental fight, something happened to me. All of a sudden, I saw a light quickly slide over my eyes, I felt a sort of a shock, and I saw everything as if it was a shade brighter. Everything seemed a little bleached out. I suddenly became completely morally pure (I.E. Didn't have to fight against any sinful thoughts, they went away on their own), and was able to think at least twice as deeply as before. I am a generally deep-thinking person, and know what my mental potential is. This was as close as to my full potential as I ever have been. However, it only lasted until the next morning, and I have been get back to that level ever since. I have started to wonder if it was some sort of mental takeover by some spirit, but I really don't know. I would appreciate any thought on what this could be.
I have always wanted to see spirits. I can feel them just fine, and have a generally close friendship with one which I converse with through feelings, but I have never been able to actually see one, or truly speak to one. Is there a way to increase your awareness of the spiritual world beside just plain meditating?
My mother says I spend too much time in my room by myself, and is going to move my computer, which I use for all of my schoolwork, right out in front of the kitchen (where she generally stays to help my siblings with their work) in the living room. The problem is that I'm pretty sure she's an unintentional energy vamp. This and the fact that she believes there are no such things as psychics makes for a dangerous combination. That coupled with her completely overbearing and self serving personality makes it almost impossible for an empath like me to get anywhere near her. I have no way of stopping what she is doing, so I need some advice: how do I protect myself from her while I'm outside of my room? I've managed to create a sort of shield in my room out of emotions, which neutralizes the way she effects me whenever I'm in it, but there's no way I have the energy to create another, especially in a room where the entire side wall completely open to the hallway.
Thank you for any answers.