I sent a previous account of my experiences, and now that I am aware that I am not crazy, I realize that my anxiety of being around a lot of people is not because I'm claustrophobic but because I am reading their energies. I need to develop my abilities so that I may be able to control my energy readings. For example, yesterday I was at school, I go to college so my class is very large. I could not sit still my head was hurting and this boy kept talking to me. I asked a young man in my class if he had lost a young boy, and he had. He had lost his nephew in a car crash. The spirit of the young boy must've followed me home because there were many steps and my electronics were going crazy. I asked the young boy to leave and the random events stopped. I am afraid that I will bring something evil home, and I am especially scared because my youngest brother is developing his abilities also. I can feel a spirit, and hear it but I cannot see it.
I have tried to look for help through the internet but I try to meditate and I still can't seem to control my abilities. Most of these things happen randomly. I would like to use my abilities to help people and their families. I am convinced that if I can help myself I can help my younger brother. I would like to have my abilities for the benefits of others who need help and for those who are curious. I am not sure how to approach this any longer because I sometimes feel pain when I am around people. I feel like I get headaches and intranquility around people who have strong spirits around them.